Must you hold them the way you do?
Your arm around their shoulder, your hand around their waist.
Their big eyes staring into yours, I'm envious.
At this dance watching you two sway happily in love, creates a burning in my stomach.
But i will continue to dance, but not with you, for you have found your happiness in them, while i silently reside.
As time goes on , so do you.
You found yourself with them, so you don’t need me anymore like I need you.
I catch myself staring, staring hard, they’re such an angel , aren’t they?
I could never hate them, because it's not their fault, but then again,
I find myself wishing they were dead.
How could you choose them over me?
Haven’t I always been the one closest to you?
Haven’t i always been there with you,
through thunder and lightning i stayed by your side,
and you still chose them, over me.
Which is why you caught me with my hands around their neck,
blood rolling down my cheek, and then a subtle drip drip coming from the tips of their pale fingers.
I've always loved you, there was no other solution.
You asked me why I did this?
Because you were kind, when I needed it the most, for the longest time you were kind.
Oh dear, why did you have to choose them?
You could have made this a lot easier than it had to be.
Your smile has always been too much for me.
Seeing it with someone who isn’t me is new.
Just know, I will always be waiting in the strawberry fields, forever alone, the sky staring back at me.
