Faith in God
Faith in love
Faith in life

Faith to me is like a dove
It's there for you to look at
Beautiful though small
But it's free and won't stay trapped

Having faith is like walking on ice
Difficult and easy to fall
If there's one small crack
The ice could break and end it all

I won't say faith isn't needed
For that would be a stretch
But faith is hard to keep
There one day and gone the next

Faith can keep us going
When we feel alone
But misplaced faith
Can hit you like a stone

I wish I had more faith
Unpredictable though sweet
Maybe then I would be happy
And no longer cry myself to sleep

you tell me I'm smart
that I'm strong
that i can do it

but how can i be smart when i can't do simple math
how can i be strong when some days i can barely drag myself out of bed
how can i do it when i can't eat my breakfast

you tell me I'm pretty
that I'm fine
that it will be okay

but how can i be pretty when i look in a mirror i see someone who is not me
how can i be fine when life seems grey and dull
how can it be okay when the days drag on and on and i just want to sleep

you tell me you love me
that I'm safe
that I can live

but how can you love someone as broken as me
how can i be safe when I'm with myself
how can i live when i can barely survive

you tell me that you'll be there for me
that you'll always be here
that no matter what ill have you

but how can you be when you don't understand what going on
how can you be here when i can say the same
how can i always have you when I'm afraid of scaring you off

you tell me lies and i can't tell you that i don't believe you
because it would hurt you
and i can't do that
im so sorry
but i just can't believe

You have no idea what it does to me
When you call my name.
When you look my way
When you put that smile
On your face.

You have no idea.
Have no idea.
No idea.
What you do.

She saw me looking
at the beautiful night sky.
You seem fascinated
by the stars she mused.
They are more fascinated
by me I said.
We understand each other
the stars and I.
They see me as the one
who makes wishes.
I see them as the stars
who fail to grant them.
People think they are
made of fire and power.
But they are only
made of lost dreams
and unanswered prayers.
Which one is made of your wishes?
she asked.
I show her the brightest star
in the heavens.
It is that one
it burns with my wishes.
They are all about you
Doesn’t that make you a star?

I never meant to run
You never meant to hurt
Neither of us never mind to do that

You said it was just too okay
I guess none should be alright
How could you just keep your eyes shut,
While in the same time one begins to die?

You would never care
For I never stop to try
You would never realize
Unless I keep away and hide


Darling, that's how i ran away
Dont look for me even for awhile.

Dec, 23 2015.
I'm done with you.

Can't teach a forgiven sinner,
how to repent for their mistakes.
Grace them with my presence
and they'll return to their snakes.
They'll say they're sorry,
and then stay the same.
I'll let them in,
and they'll slander my name.
I am not a god, I hold a standard.
Match it and be equal,
fall short and be abandoned.