He lay on the bed wearing nothing but a wicked smile.his muscular body begged me to come and caress every last inch.

He crawled to the end of the bed putting his arms round my waist.pulling me in close to his well tone muscular body.

He said lay beside me and tonight I'll take you beyond the stars.we will go higher than man ever could.

His soft lips kissing my neck his hands slowly moved up my thighs.gilding over my stomach caressing my *******.

Our naked bodies entwined it stared with a passion kiss.running my fingers through his hair pulling his head back so gently.

His hard length made my body shudder and my heart skip a beat.breathing deep licking his tongue the earth moved in my head.

Hands held down hip pounding  deep thrusting gyrating movements,made me beg for more.biting his neck like a vampire needing to fed.

Sliding down his body landing between his legs looking up him.licking his ***** like a lollypop looking up at him.

His moans cut through the night air I could feel his fingers in my hair.he beg me to keep going and not to stop.

He said your my vampire looking to be fed tonight .his hot *** teasted better than honey or chocolate.

He lay back staring up the celling saying nothing unable to speak.looking at his face I saw only a wicked smile.

Sorrow is last weeks feeling cant cry anymore the tears have dried up once more.trying to understand what is going on in your head but getting no where.text messages don't get answered the phone is off the hook.theres a gap between us that keeps getting bigger deeper and wider.

there's no filling the gap its gone to far for that i wish things could be different.silence has become the only thing we share these days the passion dies.feeling so small hurt and heart broken fighting for love that means so much.

i guess its time to give up and let go because the love has gone and the desire is gone.we are together in the same place but yet our eyes are on the door.theres a longing to be some where else that isn't here or with you.

i close my eyes and slip into a beautiful dream where thingso is still the same and we are happy.what a wicked thing to do letting me believe that everything was fine.say something to me tell me what i already know end the heart ache.

Not happy or sad not up or down feeling lost in a sea of pain heart ache and sorrow.the moaning voices that surround me never shut up not even for second.they just seem to keep getting louder and louder how i wish they would stop.

no where to run or hide no secret place to go stuck in a living room that feels like a cell.i wish that i could fly like bird never looking back going where i want to go.these days my dreams are the only place i feel free and alive.

searching for a reason to get up in the morning so that life can move once more.a different day with the same crap dying inside just that little bit more.i scream as loud as i can but no one hears me scream or crying trapped now and forever

Close your eyes so that you don't see the heart shatter pain that you caused.walk away and don't look back at my tears its only going to make you want to stay.you say that your soul needs to be free you have your freedom now.

as the days nights weeks and months passed the pain seem to hurt less old wounds healed.i often wondered if you where happy and free like you wanted to be.a knock at the door on a bitter cold winters night who could it be?.

opening the door to find you standing my door step looking cold sad and lonely.i should have shut the door and it locked it when i heard our sons cry i couldn't do it.there was apart of me that loved you i guess fate brought you home

We went out on the town with out a care in the world drinking laughing singing and dancing.living after midnight every where starts to close theirs doors the night out has ended.walking back to your house still in party mode.looking into your eyes knowin that we should not be together and alone.

I should walk away but i cant and dont want to leave you behind is this fate or just desire.our bofdise entwine you kiss my neck and beg me not to go.whispering in my ear stay a little longer don't leave me not mow.one look one touch one kiss cloths hit the floor.

Our bodise tremble our moans drif into the darkness of night the bed shakes.we gasp for air  hands wander hips dip how can it ne wrong when it feels right.as if this was meant to happen sweat runs down pur bodise.we fall asleep for a while not thinking about the line we crossed

Waking up the next morning laying next to your naked body looking at you.yet i have no regrets about what happen last night deep inside me i want this to happen.took a risk share a night out crossed the line and made love all night long

You always had a dream of the person you wanted me to become yet you never care what i thought.you never asked if it was what i want to be it was about you.i remember everything you tried to teach me and how bad it sounds now.

Always be what people want you to be move in the right cricles its all about money power and rescept.you want it take it no matter what the coast is.the world is yours so go ahead and  grab it and always be perfect.

This was the ugly moster you where trying to turn to me into i am
for not perfect.but i couldnt be that heartless or be someone who is shollow and fake.that just not me.


I just want to be me no one is perfect we all make mistakes we sometime get it wrong.i cant be fake and show people that i love them or care about them i am sorry.