Your heart is as black as the night sky.
Your eyes are colder than winter.
You let hate consum you.
Your the lonely one who is who crying
Without a hand to hold.

Look up from your phone
what do you see.

Take the mask off when your
Talking to me.
Let me see the real you
Flaws and all.
Show me the you that no one knows.

I stand by the window and wonder will the anxious thoughts stop?.
Trying to get through the day without using survival mode.
Tierd of fighting with my own mind everyday.
Feeling a depression thats crushs you.
Its easier to say i'm fine when all
You really want is a hand to hold.
Crying in the night so no one sees your tears writing the pain away.
I stand at the window hoping for a better and happier tomorrow.

Crashing waves.
Skimming stones.
Broken hearts.
Shattered dreams.
Lost words.
Silent tears.
Gained nothing
Lost everything.

The crashing waves kisses the shore
Everytime they meet.
Never will there be another touch
That feels as good as yours.
Never will I hear anything as sweet
As your voice in my ear.
Not even the cool summer breeze feel as good as your fingertips on my skin.
I will never love again or give my
Heart to someone else.

Forgotten words.
Blank pages.
Empty lines.
A lost poem.
Is like a dream you can't remember.

Love your self.
Love who you are.
Love your body.
Beauty has no size.

Love is love.
If it makes you happy and you have your happy ending long may it last.
Everyone deserves to be loved.

Why?
Is it that I can only think of you.
Your touch your sweet gentle kiss.
The smile that stole my heart.

Why?
is it that every road taken bring me back into your arms, where it always feels the safest place to be.

Why
is it that your heart returns my call everytime leaving me wanting and needing you more.

The tears.
The pain.
I love you.
I hate you.
You don't win.
I don't win.
No one wins.
Why do we keep doing this?.

We fall in love,
Only to learn how to
Let go.

Love is
False promises shatter dreams.
A broken heart tears cried.
A pain that doesn't stop hurting.
A painful sting that stops you breathing.
Thoughts that don't let you sleep.

I love everyone.
But I trust no one.
That's the sad part.

Make your own music.
Sing songs loud.
Take more risks.
Chase your dreams.
Worry less laugh more.
Do what you love.
Live for today.
Forget the past.
Love who you are.

My eyes close and suddenly I am alone
With you in a beautiful dream.
I can't wake up because I want to stay
In this moment with you.
Feeling your lips pressed against mine
Feeling our bodies entwine
Becoming one.
Lost in every inch of a dreamful pleasure words just can't explain.
Wrapped up in your arms my heart is heavy.
Because when morning comes the dream is over.

Its 1 am
The wind has gone to sleep watching a candles flame burning away.
Remembering how the sun always shined and we lived for fun.
Laughing so hard tears rolled down our cheeks.
Sitting up late into the night time seem to stand still.
Its 2 am
It feels so empty with out you.  
The pillows is wet from the tears I have cried
A heart filled with pain.
Can't think anymore
Your fading into to a dream I am not living anymore.
Its getting harder to breath.
Its 3 am
How can I sleep while the bed is burning.
Trying to forget you but can't.  
The walls are closing in on me
My mind is spinning.
Your my oxygen I can't breath.
Its 4 am
Falling a sleeping.
The candles are burn out.
In a dream that feels so real
Feels your touch.
It feels so real.
Wakes up to find you are no were never me
Maybe one day,you'll fade away and my dreams will fall apart.

Maybe
This was
Never meant to
Last so I'll say
Goodbye

It's not something I can turn on and off
It's not an act either.

to loud I am told to be quite.

To quite there has to be something wrong I can never win.

Thinking thoughts no one understands.

Feeling more alone than ever.

Anxiety is a part of me that I want to lose but I can't lose it.

Come see see me and we can live
After midnight.
Touch me under the silver moon light.
Kissing me under the stars.
Hold me tight pull me close to you.
Make me say your name.
Promise me one thing.
After tonight never let me go.

My mind is so full of scrumbled
Thoughts and mixed emotions,
That I can't explain.
I am not happy or sad I am
Not up or down.
I just feel so mixed up today

I have seen the sea
When it is.
Rough and wild.
Calm and still.
Warm and cold.
Dark and moody.
In all these moods.
I see my self.

How do I start this poem?
How do I tell you that I love you?.
Because the bed is burning and my mind is full
Ready to burst.

Your the secret that I love to keep
Waiting on  your message with anticipation.
Feeling my heart beat so hard.
Feeling things words can explain.

Longing to feel you pull me close.
Longing to taste your kiss.
Dreaming of being alone in your arms.
Getting lost in your eyes.

Your more than just a secert
Your my favourite to secert to keep

I lay awake staring at moon counting
Stars until i fall asleep.
Tears in my eyes why did i let you in
When you were never mine to love.
Your touch your gentle kiss the way you stole my breathe.
I can't sleep in a bed thats burning feeling things i have no right to feel.
Craving the sound of crys cutting through the darkness of night.
You left with my heart in your jar.

Poetry is my medicine

Catching dreams and living in the moments I know are forbidden.
Lips bitten in the darkness touched with tenderness we both carved.
Covered by a wave of a lustful excitement.
Wrapped in the curves of his body
The place I always long to be.
Crys of pleasure feeling things
My heart had forgot how to feel.
Finding the missing piece of me that I
That I lost.

You are
  The mystery I want to find
  The secret I want to keep
  The touch I want to feel
The kiss I want to taste

Given so much.
Asked for nothing.
Watched people leave.
No good byes said.
Never seen or heard.
Darkness is my only friend.
Loneliness is the blanket that surrounds me.

Everytime I find the light
You turn it out and,
The pain all starts again.

With him my soul could be naked
We shared beautiful moments,
We had deep meaningful moonlit conversations,
He reminded me what it was like to
Dream to again,
I love the mornings laying in his arms
He feeds my soul in ways no one else
Ever does I feel alive.

Step into my shoes.
Feel the things I feel everyday.
Feel every broken thought rushing
Through your head.
Listening to all the nagging voices
That never stay still silent.
Then you will know how it feels
To be in my shoes.

She wanted to love him have all the feelings that came with being in love.
His smile made her knees shake his touch set her soul on fire.
She longed to lay in his arms and listen to the beat of his heart.
She wanted to love him the only problem is she, doesn't know how to love him because she was use to never needing to be loved