Night is when everything catchs me.
The worry the anxiety the fear.
That loud voice in my head, which begs Me to make it stop hurting.
Trying to heal each wound one by one.
I hate the night because that's when my terror begins.

You can lock yourself away,
Pretend that everything is fine
Bury your head in the sand
While a acting as of nothing
Really matters anymore
I have been down the same road
I have learn from experience
That hiding does nothing
The problem still testers and grows
The depression get worse by the day
You can run if you like but just know
This you will be running forever
Push everyone away if you want
I will always be the villain in your
Story but just know that hiding
Achieves nothing
There's no shame in saying I
Need help.

Never any peace or space to breath.
While i cry inside stuck in the same
Thoughts.

No sleep no freedom nothing but
A heart shattering pain, no one understands.
They say they do but I know its a lie.

Some thoughts can't be forgotten.
Things stay with you forever.
Words can't be taken back either.

I tried to see past the lies.
I tried to sweep away the
Broken promises.
I tried to put my broken
Heart back together.
I tried to forget all the
Tears i cried.
I tried to save your black heart
But it was too late.
This is not a love peom.
This is a good bye.

My heart is empty.
My eyes are full of tears.
Nothing is ever enough.

Can't smile through the pain.
Counting to ten doesn't work.
Given everything that I have.

Always been there to help.
Never gave up on you.
Nothing really matters.

Now I lay me down to sleep with thoughts of you in my head, to keep me from loneliness. In the deepest part of my dreams I will hear your voice echo, across the mountains, and dancing upon the waves of the sea.

If I could stay in this moment with you I would do it if I could, stop time I would do it. If I could fly away with you I would, do it never looking back. My heart and soul belongs only to you.

These eyes of mine see no one other than you I would give you, the sun the moon and the stars. Body and souls belongs to only you. Now I lay me down to sleep in sadness but in happiness.

He walked out the sea like a Greek god. watching as his wet flawless skin glistened, under the summer sun.
He seduced my mind he touched me with me with words.
Engulfed by desires flames he had my heart, from that moment on.
Captivated by Salacious thoughts.
He had me feeling things only my heart could understand.
Body kisses, neck kisses, breathless bites he made my body tremble.
He gave me a warmth that I've spent a lifetime looking for.

Feeling numb and empty.
Surrounded by masked faces
I no longer know.
They greet you with a fake smile.

They ask how are you and then
Look their phone.
Not waiting for you to answer.
So i say everything is fine.

Pouring my heart on to blank lines
Of my notebook.
Happy when night come because
I can escape for a while.

The world is falling apart two
Black life's taken.
Yet they tell me to cheer up
That it is not my problem.

We are living in a fake society
Where its okay to live a lie, and
Judge anyone who doesn't fit
Into that mould.

Haven't you notice how every picture
Has a smile that tells a thousand lies.
My friends look at each other and
Say #letstakeaselfie.

Feeling like a paper boat on a lake
Wondering if I belong anywhere.

Lost smiles and forgotten dreams.
Newly springs roses dancing in the gentle breeze.Remembering past summer days.

A freshly lit barbecue burnt back sausages. Laughing so hard tears rolled down our cheeks.

Thinking our time would last forever, Life ends and your gone.
Now all that's between us is the moon and stars.

Remembering our last summer.

Our eyes met we exchange smiles you give me that flirty look. Our bodies entwine we move to the music heart to heart until the music ends.

We slip away when no one notices laughing as if we were teenagers again.Standing under the sliver moon light of the night time stands still.

Caught up in a lust filled moment one kiss changed everything. Secret meeting at midnight away from prying eyes and gossiping people.

Our moan's and groans cut through the clear starry night sky. Every rule broken each line crossed gone beyond the point of no return.

Forbidden fruit always tastes sweet one bite is never going to be enough. I maybe playing with fire but what is life with out a little risk.

Burning the midnight oil writing poem's.
Swimming through a sea of emotions.
Sweeping pieces of broken heart away.

Filling blank pages and empty lines with
Words trying to release the pain. Some memories are too painful to forget.

Poetry isn't just words on paper feelings or emotions. It's the one thing that saves us and gives us a way to express our self.

You broke my heart.
I dug my key into the side of your car.
You made me cry.
I slashed all four tyres.
Your ruin my life.
I burned your car down to it's shell.
Revenge is a dish served hotter than the fires of hell.

Do it so you don't look bad.
Do it so it gets it out the way.
Do it so it keeps everyone happy.
Do it so it shuts everyone up

A smile to hide how forced you feel.
Some were you don't want to be.
Eyes on the door wanting to get away.
Stuck listening to mindless talk.

Counting to ten never does work.
You tell your self its only for awhile.
Everyone talking to you all at once.
Wishing you could have some peace.

Asking yourself why didn't you say no.
How hard is it to just use your mouth.
Feeling the anger build and build.
Sitting in a place worse than hell.

Can't listen to this small talk anymore.
Can't bear anymore news either.
Can't take the pointless conversations
Thats going no where.

Not saying no leaves you worse off.
Not saying no leaves you bored.
Not saying no leaves you stuck in hell.
Not saying no comes with a price to pay.

Say no fast mean it when you say it.

I see faces fading into the past.
I hear the grandfather clocking ticking.
I have tasted bitter sweet fruit.
I smell you sweet lingering scent.
I feel a love only my heart understands.

I can do this with or with out you.
I know you never had my back.
I know you where only using me.

All the lies and stories judging me
Like it was your right.
While I was hurting you took joy
From it.

Now you tell me that your sorry
As if I am meant to believe it.

I am sorry we ever met.
I am sorry that I gave you my time.
I am sorry I let you close to me.

Your not a friend your just someone
To forget.
When your alone and no one wants
To know.

You will never find someone like me.

Loves gentle kiss loves tender touch.
Let soft lips do what gentle hands do.
Carries out on waves of strong emotions.
A venomous kiss I long to taste, letting
The venom stay deep in my veins.
Bring the darkness of the night so I can
Get lost in dreams of what could be.
Can't deny what burns deep in my heart.
William wordsworth saw a host of golden daffodils', William Shakespeare was trying to compare someone to a summers day, Robert burns love was like a red red rose.
Yet I feel something words can't explain.
If this is love I prey it will last.