I didn't realize what I was doing
It was all just fun and games
But I went in too deep
And now I can't back out

Not without hurting you
Oh how I hate hurting you
I thought that I was doing what was best
For both of us
But when I stepped away
I saw that i was hurting us

Now we are stuck
Either being unhappy together
Or being unhappy apart

I wish I could say
That I won't forgive you
That I will hold it against you forever
That our friendship is forever changed

But we all know I will
It is impossible for me to hold a grudge
I see the good in everyone
Even you

I don't think you realised
How much those words hurt me
I know that wasn't your intention
But it doesn't take very many words
to break a heart
Maybe I am just insecure
and easily broken

I found my greatest fault
It wasn't my laugh
It wasn't the way I stuttered when I talked
It wasn't the shape of my body
It was never any of those things

It was that I let people like you
Make me believe that I was less
Because of those things

My laugh
Is unique and beautiful

My speech pattern
Doesn't matter

My body
Is perfect for me

My greatest fault
Was letting people knock me down
Was believing the nasty things they said
Was letting people push me around
Was not realizing my beauty within


And I
I
Am stronger than that

I wish I could explain how much I love you
but those emotions can not be put into words
so I will never be able to let you know how much you mean to me
not even a sliver of what I feel you will understand

I'm sorry I hurt you in the past
It's the biggest mistake I ever made
you cared about me
and I threw it away
I threw you away
but I was the one who was a piece of trash
I regret that I didn't take in your love
I regret that I pushed you away

You are the only guy
who has loved me
and cared for me
and treated me like a lady
what else did I want from you?
I don't even remember.

I know that I am mean to you sometimes
sometimes I hope you will say something mean back
but you never do
you roll with the punches
and I'm sorry that I keep hitting
I just want a reaction
something, anything
but your face is a stone
and I don't know what you are thinking
I hope it's about me though

I wish I could let you know how much I care and I wish you would just care too.