I can’t do this anymore
I want to run away before the race even starts
Why are you trying to change me before you get to know the real me
its like you and I don't speak the same language anymore
I'm losing myself piece by piece and its driving me crazy
I’m hiding my true self because you can’t handle all of me
The rushing to commit before I’m ready is pushing me away
I’m slipping between your finger tips and soon I’ll disappear
I keep trying tell you it’s over.. I’m done
But you can’t or won’t understand  
It’s not working.. it’s too hard too fast too much work
I feel so guilty stressing out pretending and lying
You are trying to play house and dress me up to fit in your life
I’m such a good lair and I feel so shamed
It’s better to end this well we still have some dignity....

2017/2-12-22

Rewind And **** it all
i hate you love  **** is like my backpack
no need to cry no tears no water
you keep the park not the ivy paert
i was big red you lie when you speak
im not glad but im not just mad
you ****** with an ugly heart
you went on a lion sleeping
no leap no tea no ******* frogs
i hate that you loved raw no glove
i said takecare no longer
useful no water no sun

I envy for that, forever sleep
That comes up naturally
From which I wish, I do not wake
In which I lose myself totally
So deeply drowned
Even a thought can not reach
My brain a frozen vacuum
Nothing to it, you can teach
But these eyes do not sleep
The doors to my brain,
Are always active and awake
Only to watch these eyes rain
The aches and pain soothes
My delicate, withered body
A touch brings me shivers
But with me, there is nobody
I crave for that everlasting love
That oneday I'd be an apple
In the eyes of somebody
But it seems it's too late
To takecare of my own body
Weak and paralyzed
Covered in shroud like sheets
I hear the whispers of death
Far beyond,
...............counting on my beats!


©sim

How cruel has the world become,  
People change ,
Feelings fade,
You are replaced,  
Hearts break,  

And if you have someone then please Takecare,  

Because today they take a bullet for you,  
But tomorrow they are the one shooting,
The ones holding the gun at you,

In a blink of an the one who made me smile while crying was the reason I cried.....

So cruel it is , too much to bear.

I'm frozen in time,
When I'm back to present,
We'll meet again,
Till then, takecare, love you.....