today I wear my little pride,
under the skin of my chest,
trying to let today be as good as it can get,
my what seems to be worst fears,
I have gotten through today,
and I am off guard when his close friend comes over to me,
he tells me how he has not shut up about me all summer,
he tells me how he wants to know what's going on with me,
and I'm frozen because of the words someone who's barely my friend,
has just told me,
things that remind me that there are other things that scare me,
other things that really will hurt me,
and even though those things are really bad for me,
I cant help but keep hoping,
he will talk to me,
I don't know why I feel this way, maybe I need to confront him, idk, the **** he did to me has and still has ****** me up, u can't abuse someone in that way and not let them no unless u really love them, this is why its very hard for me to sometimes remember he is a bad person even though I may love him a lot,