Sitting in silence, in a gloomy new year’s eve
Keeping all his burden and everything he conceive
Tears flow through his eyes and he wept there inside
With all the sadness that he’s trying to hide

How can he feel love, when he feels so alone
Wishing there could be someone who’ll love him so
How can he be strong, when his strength is gone
When the last hope he’s holding disappear in his hand

He’s trying to be happy, he’s trying to be nice
He’s trying to be friendly, and trying to be wise
But still he’s weak and can’t manage to be strong
When he knows he can make it, that’s when he’s strength can’t took long

He love his friends, he really love them so much
With all that love, he can’t win that back
He doesn’t know what’s happening, all he know he is fair
But why do the world, for him, is so unfair

In the mirror, his reflection looks forward to him
He face the emptiness they bring out to him
He tried to be numb with all of the pain
But nothing change, they are all the same

Please my Lord, please do love him
Please do have sympathy, oh please guide him
Make him remember that he’s worthy to live
He is worthy to this life and to all the blessings You will give

Make him realize that he is Your son
Please help him go on, he’s just a human
Please oh God don’t let him down
Please raise him up and keep him calm

I know deep inside – in the heart of a pessimist
Someday he’ll be strong, he can stand on his feet
Someday he’ll be true about his entirety
He will fly away to save his sanity

Don’t look at him like he’s the one to blame
He’s just so unsure, don’t think he doesn’t care
Don’t talk against him as if you know him enough
He is your friend when the times get rough

Inside, his soul is slowly languishing
His mind is fading, his body’s vanishing
But in time I know he will save his self
And in his eyes I see nobody but my self.

I have this feeling of losing again, I failed again this time
I think I'm fading from nowhere, I think I should stop living this life
Why does everything in me is so imperfect? Why they can't love me in that way?
Why do people can't see the real me? Why do this world is so unfair?

I tried everything just to be seen, tried everything to be cared
Tried to be good to have your attention, tried everything to befriend
I tried to be the best in everything so that you could be proud
I even tried to sacrifice my life so I could felt I was loved

I am weak, still I am lost, and still I haven't found my path
I like to draw but I don't have the hands to paint that beautiful life
I love to sing but still don't have the voice that everyone would love to hear
I like to write an endless poem but no one would care 'bout this dream

As I'm writing these words, I can't help but to cry
I know this time God is angry with me 'cause 'til now I was blinded by my eyes
I know He has been telling me so many times that I should stand and stay strong
There are so many beautiful things that can't be seen and it's alright for me to go wrong

These rhyming words in every line are my life, my heart, my soul
Every ending, it's significant feeling will always be a part of my whole
The endless print of my undying words will always be here to stay
All will be enough just to feel He cared that is my constant pray

As I am writing in this part, I suddenly realized
That I should stop crying myself, I should now dry my eyes
For there will always be tomorrow to restart a brand new day
To continue all that I've stopped believing in, to continue to walk with His way

I have sent all my worries, lifted it all above the sky
You won't ever see me crying again, my soul will never die
I know God will always be here, I know He wanted me to go back
To where my life has used to be, I got to feel my existence back.

If I could just sing, maybe I am someone a lot way better
If I could just sing, maybe I could feel I am halfway further
If I could just sing, maybe You can hear me and heed my cry
If I could just sing, maybe there is no reason to let my dreams die

If I could just sing, my life would be something a place like home
If I could just sing, I can believe that in anything I am capable
If I could just sing, maybe there is a great chance of becoming whole
If I could just sing, maybe I can be prouder and I can do more

If I could just sing, maybe I can have a lot of friends
If I could just sing, maybe they can remember me and no one will forget
If I could just sing, maybe they will be giving me a chance to try
If I could just sing, maybe I don't have to hide and to tell a lie

If I could just sing, maybe everyone will be grateful that they have me
If I could just sing, maybe I can be someone who I wanted to be
If I could just sing, maybe I can touch one’s simple life
If I could just sing, maybe I can feel I am important, I can feel that I'm alive

Maybe there’ll be no reason for me to cover
Maybe there'll be no reason for me to feel under
Maybe I can feel that I do certainly belong
Maybe I can make myself firm and make myself strong

If I could , I will wish this what God has given me
I will trade all my poems for the chance that this could be part of me
I won't hesitate to lose all my words and I won't save any of it
'Cause words will always be useless unless you put a music in it

I tried my best to memorize every tone in every note
I tried everything just to sound good but I can't in every song
And I realized sometimes you have to stop to save yourself from bleeding
For you to live now in reality and to stop yourself from pretending

I envy those who can sing and those voices that truly fly
I envy those who can flawlessly hit that high
Sorry but I'm giving up now and letting now this live into dream
Maybe I can be one of them, if I could just sing.

I'm living again the memory, living again in a lie
Seems I've been reminiscing it for century, I'm living again to die
Your face came to cross my mind and I'm hurting again inside
Still I can't be off of what you've given me, I can't go on with my life

You looked at me, I looked at you, in you I let my heart to fall
I looked at you, you looked away, you never tried to hear my call
You looked at me, I looked at you, I see your eyes captured my soul
I looked at you and now you're gone, I think I'm starting to lose my all

I close my eyes and lay in here to feel again your warmth
I close my eyes and feel the moment I actually held your hand
I remember the moments, that so many moments, we looked at each other's eyes
I've been wanting and struggling to tell you I love you but that was only on my mind

I'm trying my best to forget you and never to speak your name
I'm trying each way to undo the feeling but it's too strong to be gone in my way
I'm hating your self just to erase you but suddenly I remember your smile
I'm hating my self 'cause of still holding you and I'm starting again to cry

Though you're far away from me, though you're not here to stay
Your memory still remain in me, I'm always here to care
Though you're not feeling me and you never tried to look back
I'll be always here waiting for you, you'll always be a part of my life

I still have the pain in me, they say I shouldn't live like that
I've been struggling to **** the emotion, believing this ain't they called 'love'
Each day instead of moving on you go slowly deep inside my whole
Everything just keeps coming back and absolutely I have no control

I guess I'll have to leave it here, don't try to mend my heart
For still I will be living here and moving only a part of my mind
For I still have faith and I still believe that forever I can hold you close
I will be moving on half-heartedly, other half will still be yours.