Renae

Renae Jun 2023

Blessed

I love me. I am golden inside, I am not full of pride. I am love. My skin was gifted to me by the creator, it has exactly what I need for the sun that I'm under. I love my abilities; the fact that I have two hands and two feet, 10 fingers and 10 toes. I know that I am loved, I can run and jump, climb, smile, laugh, taste, hear and see. I am love and I am loved and that is all I need to be

Blessed to be human, who cares what color I am.

#color #black #white #human #person #creation

Renae Feb 2023

Candid

I need to tell the truth
Let me be candid
I'm in a world
full of bandits
Diluted infractions
I need action
Drowning in
"look at me pollution"
love's an illusion
on a lonely screen
I find
unsolicited advice
How nice
Is this my new therapy?
I've lost my mind
Without meaning
how can I believe it?

Where's the truth
What's the truth
Where's the love
What's the proof?
You said I matter
That's a lie
Watch me shatter inside
Over and over I die
as life goes by
like a racecar
I'm tired, scarred,
never understanding why
What'd you say?
Say what you mean
Do what you say
There's no in-between
If all I have is you
How the hell am I
Supposed to make it through
I don't have it in me to
keep on giving

Make it worth living

#life #candid #truth

Renae Jan 2023

Too good

You think you're
doing life right?
Bending over
backwards
no fights.
Never saying
what's on your mind.
You always break
You know
they're fake,
all they do is
take take take...
leave you in pieces
feeling too
awake.
But you're here again
In tears again
Does reciprocation
exist?
Or is empathy
a disease?
One that only
brings you
to your knees.
I digress
my mind's a mess
I don't know
how it works
to
put myself first.

#empathy #doormat #friends #love #hate #relationships #mentallyinstable

Renae Dec 2022

You know who you are

I told you I
believe
it's just
way too late.

You came back
telling me
It's okay to
take breaks...

How can we
build anything
on avoidance
and mistakes?

My mistakes
Your mistakes
Our foundation
has breaks,
It's broken

When did
you ever admit?
Apologize
to me, for dismissing
my feelings?
For making me feel
like nothing?

Why should I
act like it's okay?
We cannot become
One
With so much space

Renae Oct 2022

Underneath it all

Underneath
I suppose I was vibrant
Confident
Useful &
Unused yet
Before the war
Before the destruction
I was beautiful
Loveable
Underneath the rubble
I was something
To be admired
Inspirational
Underneath it all

Renae Sep 2022

Wants

I want to be free
Free to be myself
Free to be okay with
noticing you notice me
I want to be okay
with my silhouette
I don't want to get over it
I want to be okay
I want to laugh
Laugh at me, I want to be silly
I want to feel happy
I'll never understand why
I cry and cry
I refuse to accept me
So I'll never be
what I wanted
I guess that's alright now
I'm still learning
What I'm supposed to know
I am not so good at being me
I'd like to switch places
instead I'll sleep

Feeling melancholy and things like that

#sad #poet #melacholy #wants

Renae Jun 2022

Untouchable

It's not hard to see
once you stop staring
Noticing every flaw
Imperfect is easy

We lose hope
looking at eachother
don't even wonder
about his brilliance anymore
but it's there anyway
just waiting to be discovered

Nobody compares
nothing is as amazing
No stars shine brighter
because his love is healing

Untouched
Untouchable
Brilliance
Unmatched
Unmatchable resilience
His patience is incredible
And there's nothing
Like his forgiveness
Unmatched
Untouchable brilliance

All we can do is imitate
We aren't even carbon copies
We fail and fail again
He snaps his fingers and bam!
His decisions stand
without failing

Look at gravity
Look at the impossibility
Incomprehensible designs
Perfect in everyway
We try but we can't compete

Untouched
Untouchable
Brilliance
Unmatched
Unmatchable resilience
His patience is incredible
And there's nothing
Like his forgiveness
Unmatched
Untouchable brilliance