In a dream i am falling,
Into the deep abyss,
I once swimmed in...
I once lived in....

Trapped between reality & fantasies,
Trapped between sanity and insanities,

Breaking the thorned vines, ripping them out of my way,
Climbing up the vines to the light above
Oh so bright, i see....
Hoping that soon I'll be able to breathe.
My hands & feet are covered in the thickest blood,
Pain crushing the toughest bones....
Feeling my skin ripping I'm alive I'm alive...
I'm in the clearest of skies...
Clouds so bright, pink & white...
I click,
The loudest scream of a daughter,
I close my eyes , as it rolls to the back of my head...
I'm back in the world of despair and to the thinking of being chained with thickest chains but its just a tiny thread.
Thinking that I'm Ina tight embrace by the neck, facing the worst enemy...
My killer entities.
How can live when I'm battling me .

The cessation of a sunset,
Red & blue skies fill my demon infested
worlds
My eyes are brown, my skin
Turns to red velvet...
With a blink of an eye I run,

Into the night I run,
Through the tall trees & into midnight...
My body is burning on the inside..
My hands are numb ,
My eyes are closed shut.

Into the night I run,
I run to farthest distance in an instant,
Hands & feet in a stance of insertity,
Hair tied ,
Face smashed with messiest of makeup,
Bleeding the red tears of the sinful red baby...

Into the night I run,
Running away from myself,
My present body and out of my skin,

Into the night I run,
Where no one can see me,
I scream the highest of voices
Screeching in hatred of the world...

Into the night I run,*
I run until I am one with the Sun...
And all that I am and what I was ,
Is finally done..

My love.  My love...
I'm forgetful ..
Forgive me , if you try to reach out
And i pull back ...
My love my love
I'm forgetful....
You cross me
And i never met you ....
My love my love
I'm bathing in roses,
I'm swimming in the oceans
Sunset at the time of day,
Ocean love & sunset roses...

Baby red...baby red...*
I can feel your pain
Baby red baby red...
I see the tears & it tastes oh so sour...
Baby red....
Why must you be in such sorrow?
You walk with demons
And their claws are the pacifiers
To your unearthly cries...
Baby red...
Why must you be so rude?
You laugh and are very evil,
To the angels who are here to
Protect you....
Why must you cry and bleed tears...
Why do you walk on fire and spit on love....
Baby red baby red...
Who created you?
Who concieved and made you?
Who put their evil love into a Gerber baby?
Who put the hell's sins, into the roses of your skin?
Baby red, don't be like them...

These dreams , that I dream are suicidal...
Misleading my world into an unnecessary and into its uncontrollable spin...

The demons that choose to live in , in the depths of my velvet milky skin ,
Steering the batter and the flour with eggs that I've cracked during the sins....

Molding a cake of two tragedies and two worlds closing in....
Hoping if I could reach you, but I rather not leave the bitterness that I'm currently living in...
Only to have my roses dying and singled out in the end....

Emotionless as a man, Caring as a woman...
Let the fall begin....
Falling down into the abysses of my regrets,
Viewing the libraries of once lost ones and the failures I've turned away from...

Dreaming but its more to that...
Sleeping for 5 hours,
But dreaming for years....
Crosses above an eyebrow,
RM, the Chief
Holding the minds & the hearts of 5
Entities , the battle Sergeants

Fight
Fighting until their knuckles dent,
Fight until their hands and feet are covered with the deepest red,

My thoughts enslave me,
I'm chained between the bittersweet memories,
I'm beaten by the whips of regret...
I'm fed and driven by sin,
Battle scars on its flesh.
My mind is where my inner demons rest..

Challenging myself each day,
Knowing my weaknesses ,
And my strengths,

Its a ****** scene,
A ****** scene

Yellow tape muffles its mouth,
You wouldn't here the screams.

Mind Crimes, Mind Crimes
Your entity is your secret enemy,

Father give me the light in my eyes,
I need to see ...
My mind crimes are trying to frame me,
I'm accountable for my actions & the demons I've released..
I try to keep it in ,
But they insist to have a feast...
Evil of the beast ,
Pain in my cries...
Father give me light ,
Have mercy on me ....
I'm lost before the sea,
The sea of these mind crimes..
The charges I have upon me...
Free me from my sins...

Its a ****** scene,
Its a ****** scene...

Run until my feet are brusied..
Run until I get tired...
Run.

Fight until my hands are numb
Fight until my knuckles dent and covered with its blood...
Fight.

Scream until my parents hear me from across the world....
Scream to let God know its pain....
Scream.

Love until you see a smile on its face..
Love until you breathe your last breath..
Love.