you would say "i love this movie"
you would say "i love this food"
you would say "i love to do this"
the way this sentence never ended? *"-you"

you're a gulp of breath
and i am drowning.

i'm a droplet of water
and you're an ocean

Hello, hello,
you sweet little child.
Hello, hello,
you innocent soul.

Can you see me cry?
Can you see the demons
reflected in my eyes?
Can you see the scars
inscribed on my skin?
Can you see through my mask,
so feeble, so terribly thin?
Can you see it peeling off,
can you see me rotting?

Hello, hello,
you sweet little child.
Hello, hello,
you innocent soul.

Are you afraid?
Are you scared of the
big bad scarred monster
on your doorstep?

My scars relinquishing in
sunlight,
the devils inside me
caught in a ****** war,
the pain that's decaying
my organs, my soul,
my body crumbling
like pastries to dust,
my tormented existence,
my struggle through life.
Gnawed at by self-hatred,
praised by self-harm,
thriving in blades,
awash with blood...

Can you see this?
Can you hear them?

Can you hear the voices
roaring in my head,
screaming, yelling,
howling
sweet little
"disgusting"s
"failure"s
"****"s
"good-for-nothing"s
"nobo­dy-needs-you"s
"ugly"s
"fat"s
"stupid"s
"pathetic"s
"you're better off dead"
?

Can you hear
the cry of my veins?
Can you hear my blood
begging for release?
Can you hear
my gut-wrenching
cries for help?
Can you hear my screams?

Can you see the figures
scrutinising me
deep inside my head?
Can you see the pain
bleeding down my
arms
and things?
Can you see me
ripping myself slowly
thread by ******* thread?

Hello, hello,
you sweet little child.
Hello, hello,
you innocent soul.

Can you recognise me?
Can you see yourself?

Don't stay, my sweet little girl,
don't stay,
run away,
my sweet little girl,
greetings from your
future self
on the path to decay.

i loved you
and i love you still.
you never did,
you never will.

a jungle
2. a mountaintop
3. a cave
4. a desert
5. a forest
6. the bottom of the ocean
7. a wild beach
8. the fictional worlds of my imagination
9. Atlantis
10. in your arms

and of all these places,
the last one
is where
I'll never
ever
ever
be.

I've always been fat
and so what.
looks don't define.

I've always been ugly
and so what.
looks don't define.

I used to think I was smart
but it turns out I'm not.

I used to think my brains
were my best quality.
It turns out that's
just another lie.

I am so stupid so dumb
so so so dumb

what is the point of you
you ******* useless
good-for-nothing
*******

I keep the words you told me
deep inside my brain
and they bleed into my veins;
I'm bruised all over
and your absence
has driven me insane.