I spoke in nervous tones
On the day of your death
And found myself lacking all sensory depth

Some time next Spring
All the flowers eroded
And I couldn’t care less

I looked at my reflection and saw everything I hated
In the form of where you used to stand
And what was now left in its place

Gaunt and bitter
I adorned your absence
Like a crown
Hollow as my chest

I believe my soul is rotten
Yet you say it is not

I see my face, it's so ugly
Yet you say I'm pretty

I think my body is destroyed
Yet you say I've earned my stripes

I know my heart is beyond repair
Yet you say you'll help mend it

Can you really see so deep into my eyes?
Into my soul?
My heart?
Sometimes I think you're blind
Because everything about me is *torn all apart

me sweet
me breath me
breadth my depth
me baby my maybe?

My hope
my dope
me crack
I lack

you are
what I desire
my fire me star me
rage
my calm
me psalm
me tomorrow

My yesterday
my night
my awaking
my sight

I will
seek forever,
you.

I do,
will await

you,
tonight.