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r0b0t Dec 2014
Silent observers watch, as I do,
when you lift the light, as bright as your own sun
and stare into its glowing filament, casting last shadows
and quiet lights upon the wall beside you.
Silent observers watch, as I do,
when you lift the blinds and stare out at the sun,
and whisper to yourself that you always liked the moon better.
Silent observers watch, as I do,
as you bend over your papers, desperate to finish,
but too ashamed to ask for help, too ashamed to be called stupid.
Silent observers watch, as I do,
as you lay upon your bed, dazed,
unsure where to start and where to end.
Silent observers watch, as I do,
as you whisper to yourself about stars and strands of filament.
Silent observers watch, as I do,
as you detach yourself with a quiet moan of agony, forcing yourself
to look back upon your past dealings,
and accept responsibility.
And silent observers watch, as I do,
as you lower your hands to a keyboard,
a plastic weapon in your hands to accuse yourself
of watching yourself without saying a word
and finally melding yourself together.
r0b0t Dec 2014
Because guess what? I cried.
I cried when you gave me a shirt. Because that's what Dads do.
I couldn't let you see me cry,
because that would be weak
and if anyone hates weakness, it's you.
Because guess what? You scare me.
I'm scared to death that I mess up.
Because guess what? I don't dye my hair anymore.
So you don't see me be myself.
I push down feelings and desires and questions and fight an oncoming storm of hate telling me I'm stupid.
I drink, and I do stupid ****, and I yell and I talk too loud and I'm afraid of drowning
and people see it and think, "He'll never be liked, look at how fat he is! How badly his clothes fit!"
because guess what? I'm scared to ask you things. I'm scared to ask for new clothes. Because guess what, dad? You weren't there.
And as long as I have fast food cups in my bedroom, you'll be there -
yelling that I can't do math.
in denial, scaring me, showing me your way
showing me your anger and how you can't believe you ****** me up
how you can't believe I'm scrambled like an egg
and how I gotta fight this, how I gotta fight myself because you're here
because I'm scared to fight you instead.
"Sell the kids for food,
Weather changes moods,
spring is here again,
reproductive glands,

HEY! He's the one
who likes all our pretty songs and
he likes to sing along
and he likes to shoot his gun,
but he knows not what it means...
knows not what it means, when I say..."
r0b0t Nov 2014
This revolution's got a lot to say
This revolution needs to be heard
Don't sit down, don't die
This isn't your time
This is war in the streets,
This will not be beat,
And I will tug my feet through the muck
The muck of a beaten generation
And I will drag my children out of the cells
And I will fight for freedom, I will fight for freedom
And I will stand up, don't back down
Listen to the beat of the drumming hearts
I will drag my feet through the muck
I will drag my feet through the muck
No war, not anymore
No war, not anymore, this is a revolution
This is here and now, this is us and we won't back down
This is a revolution.
r0b0t Nov 2014
and oh, I'm a man
I'm a man and I dance but oh, please don't love me
oh, please don't
oh please, I'm no good anymore, I've gone and spoiled
and I've swung from the trunk of a war elephant
and that's all I have anymore, oh
to find love in this town requires a bottle and perhaps a lighter to find me
r0b0t Nov 2014
I will paint you with
Pastel emotions
Red rage and
Blue fear and
I will paint you with
Sweeping black curves
Reminiscent of your hips and
I will paint you with neon rage and
I will paint you with soft words and
I will paint you with a white kiss
Shivering as if it is snowing
and some nights I will miss you
in shades of orange
as bright as the rising sun
and some days will be sad
and in those days
we can find each other in purple
And I will paint you with my words and
We will be immortalized in canvas.
r0b0t Oct 2014
I have fought with my wings with a disrespectful son
I have fought for my wings on a garden of fire and rage
and I will be painted across the stars
eternal, all-knowing
So give me my wings
let me fly away
Stop holding me down
Pull out the pushpins, I need to fly
I need to be
Pull out the pushpins and let me go
Stop fighting so hard to keep be grounded
let me fly across the sky and find my way home
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