Ruts in the road
And raging river rapids
And the mountain
So many, so much
Too great a love
Too much the doubt
Too big the obstacles
That I battle with the sky
Because of the clouds

Just to feel better
I let it all go
Only to find
I'm still holding on

Just to feel better I'm still holding on

The past is many days
Now the story is told
And lessons learned
So many, so much
Too great a power
Too bright a truth
Too much is in me
That I learn how to die
To cancel my scars

Just to feel better
I let it all go
Only to find
I'm still holding

Just to feel better I'm still holding on

'Ive done it all'
says every 18 year old.

not me.
ive not done it all.
i still haven't gotten accustomed to affection.
i haven't said 'I love you' and meant it.
I really want to go for bungee jumping.
Finish my half read books that i have up on my shelf.
hell,
i wanna wear my pretty dress and dance to frank sinatra with someone.
Grow my hair longer and dye it grey with black roots.
Get a job,an apartment,a cat.
nice antique plates.

Holding you
Kissing you
Whenever I think about it now
It only makes me want to
Hold the bottle a little bit tighter
And kiss it a little bit longer

One step my darling
One step indeed
One step will take you anywhere
you need to be
Follow your nose
The tingle in your toes
Let the fairies guide you
towards your heavenly goal

Narcolepsy* hard and heavy watch me fall asleep
            Lulled to bed in a cunning thread of the tangled web we weave
    I dream in pristine colors, windows of my mind anew
No fingerprints or ***** looks or evidence of you

         I find comfort in forever wherever it may be
        I may have left my home but it will always stay with me
                 The smell of all the smoke with the sound of all the rain
   On constant playback every second deep within my brain

        I found that time is all that matters and everything else faded
        I spent years and years learning how to forget everything I hated
    I've only gotten older and have nothing left to show
              Except a ringing alarm clock and blood on my pillow

     Narcolepsy** hard and heavy watch me as I sleep
     Another pill, another high, another date to keep
      If I shall die before I wake, I hope that I'm with you
    Then it won't matter where I go, cause you will see me through

It's like you play the piano in me.
Your knowing fingers
touching, playing, dancing on
my emotions. (like piano keys)
all alike, until they feel your touch
and moan in music -
the melody of that madness,
a love song
echoing endlessly
and fully, in
the silence between us.

Valentine's Day

I live alone
And my house could be cleaner
And there's no one to comment
On my demeanor

But

I tremble to think
Of the crevice and *****
On the slippery hills of
Love full of hope

Sean     Feb 14 2016