Staring at this blank page
trying to put these feelings into words,
words I can't assemble,
words that will always brings pain
and tears into my eyes.

I know you're happy with her,
And it breaks my heart to see you happy,
Happy with somene and not with me.

It breaks me, breaks me every single ******* time.
I can even feel my hearts breaking,
and my body shivers as I think of you being with her.

How I wish this pain would go away.
How I wish I could say I'm happy for you.
How I wish, but the saddest thing is I can't make it go away,
I can't stop myself from loving you.

They always say look at the bright side
Be positive about life,
but how? How can they see positivity?
When negativity takes over my body.
I can't even see those lights, all I can see is darkness
How can they say let go
When I don't have any Idea which one,
which feelings should I let go
Everything becames complicated
Everything's a blur
All I can feel is pain and I am so tired,
Tired of being sad, Sad without anyreason
All of the sudden I lost interest, Interest in everything I used to loved

I think I found my new happines
but why those it feels like it's the worst kind of happiness
happiness that will surely **** me in the end again
all I want is to be happy again and to feel again
I know in the end it will never work out but I still have this hope
hope that it might work
I 'll risk and risk till I found my true happiness and true love

My future love you've been gone too long.
My future love I've been waiting for you so long.
My future love when will you came a long.
My future love I've been loonging for your beautiful face.
My future love I've been deprived by your touch too long.
My future love we're missing so much things to do.
My future love I'll be patiently waiting for you.

You left with no single words, not even goodbye.
Left me without a final kiss to cover up this sins we made.
I had no idea what happen.
All I know now is I have a broken heart, wandering eyes, bitterness and a heavy mind.
Do I even cross your mind? or you erased me, erased even in your memories.
Do you ever think of me? I often think of you, and often think of where did I went wrong?
I gave you space to breath.
I kept my distance.
I hoped that you'll find, find those missing piece, back to me.
Do you even remember me?
Do you even remember why you loved me?
Do you? baby pls remember me.
Remember the reasons you love me before.
Remember me once more.

I kept on changing my mind
Maybe I need to think it over and over again
If this is wrong or right
Is this love or not
But if I tell you things, I'll never say enough
Will I end up with you, and If I end up with you
Will it be enough?
Is this exactly what I want?
Those it leads me somewhere or nowhere?  
Would it be worth it or a waste of time?
Tell me.

Why do we always choose the wrong one's,
when we know whose the right one.
Why do we give so much love,
when we know they can't love us back.
Why do we need to suffer,
when we could be happy.

the things is I thought love could make us feel alive
but the real things is it killed us.

I thought or so I thought I forgot,
forgot all the pain you caused.
I was wrong, so wrong enough to say,
say that I don't loved you anymore,
I don't need you anymore,
that I'm happy without you.
but I was WRONG.

You made me fall for you.
You gave me reasons to love you.
You came around to put a smile on my face.
You came and put lights into my darkest days.
You came and change everything,
But everything changes when you left,
left without any single words to say.

You left me quickly as you could.
You left me the day I fall in love with you.
You lift me up and let me fall.
You made me believe that we could be.
You made a fool out of  me