did you see
the way her eyes
were screaming for help
while she said she was okay?

did you feel
the way
her knees shook
as she ran
catching her train
of thoughts?

did you hear
her voice crackle
as she laughed
at your dumb joke?

did you taste
the salty tears
that ran down
her pale lips
the other night?

No, you didn't.
all you did
was pat her back.

All you did
was ride
that tormenting
train ride.

All you did
was laugh along
with your joke.

All you did
was kiss her lips
thinking she'd be fine
thinking it'd be over.

I saw you
On the train
You were immersed in the Sunday Times
Headline reading: Girl Missing for 17 years, Finally Found
I think to myself you are the dream come alive
This is the moment they promise in rom-coms
The outlandish answer to "how did you meet?"
I promise this time I will tap your striped-sweatered shoulder

Who am I kidding.
We were on a crowded bus, my hair
Plastered by the neighboring sweat
You
Nearly next to me, preoccupied, with your
Tiny little screen
As you stuff your hand in your low slung jeans
Pull out a stick of gum which you proceed to chew so loudly

Who am I kidding.
I gave you a sideways glance

why do you cheat on the one you claim to love
you play the victim when you get cheated on
the courage to say i love you is the lie
say what you mean not what the person wants to her
you wake up alone false talk about being grown
she gave you her heart and you tore it apart
looked in to those loving eyes now they see hate
only if the love was true everything would be great
you claim this love but have another mate
one love is true while the other is a lust
with broken hearts how could anyone trust
cheat on the one you love cheat on the one you dont love
you think this way is okay in the end youll be exposed
wearing the label be forever know as a cheater
oncw you get cause you know its over
but keep tryin living forever more in your cheating ways

Missing you,
Almost always
Late nights
Break down
That song
Turn it off
Familiar place
Drive away
Smells like you
*Hold my breath

like sand I watch you slip through my fingers again, and again, and again. ill pick you up once more, a little tighter this time, but my fight never seems to be quite strong enough for you. // I'd love you if you would please just let me.