Waiting and
waiting
and
waiting
nothing at the
end
and
beginnings
do not exist.

blood stained fingernails
hollow eyed
intestine pasta
with a beating heart side
you don't need it
but i need it
a swig of ipecac
to polish off your favorite shade of wine
a kick of copper and regret

but i am eating
her stomach grew smaller
she drowned a little deeper
a nasty lie beneath gritted teeth

come back darling,
dinner is served

She looks into the mirror
She can see a familiar face
With slowly fading fragrance
Losing all her grace
She takes a closer look
She can see a tired girl
Sinking into herself
For she has a punctured soul
For she fell too deep
And loved so pure
When she had her heart broken
There was nothing for cure
She stares into herself
Tries to act bold
But only tears , they roll down
& her body turns cold

She takes a long pause
Wipes away those tears
Slowly fakes a smile
Burying all her fears
She whispers to herself
You are going to be fine
Girl, all that you need now
Is just a little time
She takes a deep breath
Inhales all the pain
& with a broken smile she goes
Darlin' u cant get a rainbow without a little rain
With her eyelashes still wet
She fakes a smile so wide
Grabs a pair of sunglasses
Conceals the hurt those eyes refuse to hide


& there she pulls herself together
Covers her lips with favorite light pinkish glaze
Walks away from the mirror like a strong lady
For she knows, she has a mean world to face

there's no way out of these weary eyes
and crystal bones
just outside the hospital
the cab is waiting
to take you home to me

your pride is just too big
to fit inside my skin these days
to me, you're just
shriveled on a the concrete
a waste of space
just another side walk to clean

I stood from your bed.
My back towards you,
As you said,
"The most perfect silhouette."
You grabbed me,
"Don't leave yet."
I never wanted to leave,
But did anyway.
Something is not right.
I could not stay.

It was fun, playing with diamonds.
Nice to look at, too.
But at the end of the day
my hands are cut up and burning
from salty tears and disappointment
at the end of the day
I needed a rock.

it will always be you and me
with tear stains and coffee breath
and pale blue eyes
always another reason to stay
when all your love has gone away
and i miss the way we felt alive
like butterfly kisses and adrenaline highs
we tried, we tried

i miss the way we felt alive.

Do you also wince at the seeds of a watermelon
crawling there inside your mouth?
Do you also feel the bile inside begin swelling?
No way now it won't come out.

I eat only the ripest from the market
yet am forced to spit out with haste.
All the maggots and vermin seem to target
just the fruit I yearn to taste.

Life is a malicious prankster
and whatever grows are her tools.
If you're handed lemons, don't thank her-
for the only ones who take it are fools.

this
can't
be
all
there
is

You took me to the movies
and bought me dinner
even though you knew all along
that I was a ***** little sinner.

You promised me the world,
but I'll settle for your homemade lasagna.
Nothing in this world can compare
to your miraculous lasagna.

You're a ninja in the kitchen
and no one's got a clue
how you can be so flawless
at everything you do.

You stole my heart
then stabbed my eyes.
I can't believe I fell for
every one of your lies.

You took off my head
so you could eat my brain.
Then you stripped and torched the rest
and ate most of my remains.

The wolves came and ate
what you did not
and when you left that place,
I wasn't even an afterthought.

As you search for your next victim,
you feel that familiar hunger.
Even after all those years,
still, you seem to be getting younger.


Written By:
Andrew D. Robertson