This dark place gets consumed by my wandering thoughts
All its sounds and spare parts construct the fires up north
Like a ship in the port, it's cargo unloaded
The words on the wall find themselves decoded.
I take a step outside of myself and walk around this room
I sit so I can stand the weight of its tune
I sing along with lips that hold dear to each other
A song that would cause even silence to wonder

This cold air reminds me of you
The warmth that you carried, the scent of your hair
Your smile like the sun on days that weren't so clear
This chill persists but move we don't dare
So our coffee mugs sit alone with our empty chairs

Our stars align when we lay under the nights like this
You're  this close my eyes like this
Your hand on my chest lifting gentle to the the pulse of what I thought didn't exist
It's always this but isn't that what we want?
I'm being blunt to smoke out your uncertain thoughts
What's a curtain cost?
I just want to shut out the spotlights that call us back to the stage of life.
I smile that smile my mouth can't form
The one that holds your thoughts and keeps you warm
We spill like wine and take no form
Loved you since the day we were born. It's the norm to feel this worn when I put on the kettle to have this cup and finally settle. Should we wrestle with time or will we find that it's all inside of our minds? Who perfected this imperfect design? Who made this road without the signs?
Lines connect our words when hands can't talk our thoughts.
Something left to feel right.

I wrote this to say goodbye.
I lay here watching the bright sky fall shy
And look to the space between you and I
Only to find my tongue tied around words
As you your eyes swell with 'why'
We lie together, at each other, with whoever
"It's whatever"
Sick to both our stomachs knowing that attitude
won't make it better.