I want you
But you don't want me
It wasn't easy knowing that I hurt you
I'm still not over you
I messed around
with the guy you hated
Just to get your attention
I wanted you*
So when you wanted to be friends
I was happy
But then I fell more in love with you
Everytime I talk you it hurts me
And as much as it hurts me to say this....
we can't be friends anymore*
Our friendship is making it harder
to move on

Into the void I go
Nothing but darkness from head to toe
I'm cold...
I hear a whisper in the distance
It tells me to just let it go
So I do...
I see a light
So I smile thinking it's my way out
But I was wrong...
It was just another void colder than the one before
So into the void I go
With no hope and no soul*

I tried to find myself
in places that didn't exist...
My soul and heart are filled with void
I tried to find the missing piece
But I only ended up losing more
I just wanna find happiness
Within myself...
Always wondering
If there's a way out of this
....Getting high
Trying to fill this void
Realizing there's no way out
...living in hell on earth

Tomorrow (January 4)  is my birthday!!! :D
So I probably won't be on tomorrow

Who or what is a dreamer,
sitting there diguising himself.
Describing descriptions and feelings
that he never really felt...
To unsure to understand his plans are always pure;
he wants no part in using his gift,
he wants a cure.
Nah, i'm not a psychic,
a prophet,  nor off my my rocket
just a girl that reads people like you
then builds her topic.
So it gets said just this once, I introduce
The proof, see Falen another dreamer
speaks the truth.

Your words can't hurt me anymore.
Nothing you ever say or do will hurt me.

I've become a stronger women,
now it's time for you to become a man.

You can't bring me down.
You keep talking to me like i'm dumb
You treat me like a five-year old.
But if you think thats how you should talk to me or anyone then, you're the dumb.

*You can't bring me down
because I'm going to keep my head up high,
you don't have the right to talk to me like that
if you talk to me that way
you must the dumb one in town.

I see you**
---I do see you---
but I was taught not to.
I was taught that you are
my enemy, but they
taught you the same thing.
Taught us to reach for the same dream,
put hate in the middle of
kings and queens
to make sure our
princes and princess do they same thing.
---I do see you---
but i'm scared to approach you
because I want it to come easy and
I call you bitter when you deny me
without giving me a chance.
---I do see you---
But it feels like we are
so far away from each other.
Your strength intimdates
me, that's why we choose the other
And we choose her because
our history is not its own.
If we only knew you are
the most precious things
in our lives.
God didn't want me to
be alone so he made you,
took a piece of me now we are two
that's suppose to be protected,
polished, cherished, and respected.
All we think about is treasure
when we already have a jewel
and you ask why I don't love you.
---I do see you---
But I was taught not to