Off the top of my head
When ever I think back all I see is dread
Mindlessly roaming the days
Passing the time as i slowly fade
Away
Into the night I dissapear
Never seen to been seen
As if I was ever seen in the first place

When did being happy become such a struggle
When did my laughter start carrying tears
When those lonely nights carried another cut
Filled with anger, regret, disgust
This man with the blank expression
Used to be a kid
With hopes and dreams
Where his only worry was a nightmare
When did my life become so miserable
Rewind the clock
Take me back to when I was 6 & felt invincible

Put out your hand for me to hold
Start a fire to keep me from the cold
Keep me in your thoughts as my mind goes blank
Wipe my eyes as my vision gets blurry
Hold me tighter as I begin to lose myself
Drugged on this illusion of a perfect life
Remember me when I start forgetting who I am
Please

There's this question that's been bugging me
And it keeps playing on repeat
Every second of the day
Every night I lay awake
Every dream I pretend I dont remember
All so I don't have to admit
That I still think of you
Even when I don't want to
Every tear dedicated to you
Every beat my heart skips
As my memories slowly fade
And I forget who we were
Maybe I could have saved us
But then I think
Who am to you
Deep down I still love you

Don't believe the words that seep through
They're often twisted by my inner self
Protecting me from you
Protecting me from me
Saving myself for when I'm appreciated