i miss myself.
though im not sure
how it's possible --
i just
do.

its not like i miss a version of me
that has well been and gone..

i just miss myself sometimes
and i dont know
why.

im starting to listen
to more upbeat,
happy,
summery songs.

i can't describe what they sound like
but they just feel
like summer
in every way.

it's hard to explain.

but im starting to feel that
summer heat come through.
it's making me want
to go outside
and feel the air.

get sunburnt even.

i wouldn't care.

im just happy that summer breeze is back.

getting sunburnt
may be painful.

but its so worth it.

making those memories
of being on the beach
with friends
or maybe your family.

or being at a pool party
to cool off
after that forty degree day.

i would exchange laughs for sunburn
any day.

because memories,
they stay.

i hear the birds sing
to eachother
from across the street.

why can't we have life
that simple?

im sorry that im
not what you expected
after you got to know me.

maybe you have such high
expectations
and i just simply dont meet them.

but im sorry
either way.

You look at her and see her beauty
I look at her and think what you think
I see her creative spark and the way she smiles.

Though, what she does not tell us
is that her mind
has ran out
of words
We have lost our window into her mind.

feeling left out
is a different kind of feeling.
one that no one
should ever
get used to.

because it hurts.

when they text about you
without you.

or when they're singing
and dancing
without you --
but right in front of you.

its a feeling like no other.

one that no one should feel.