it was so vivid to me
the way you're not letting me go
the way you pull me closer
the way you look for me
the way you come for me
sometimes i feel
is it just yesterday
sweet warmth was once shared
that fall on the bed
that hug when cold
it was my 30th
it was you right
i might be mistaken
this is just a vivid memory
as they say
it was
sorry that i lied
i did like you from the start

xoxo

a song was played
some tears fell
some memories was remembered
i was in that phase
i was in that place
waiting
almost crying
but still loving
caring
there are four decisions
but the f*
you made me wait
you made me give
you made like this
thanks it was forty dollars
no need to pay for it
i got it
i regret it
i think
that's life
hope your shoots bounce back

the scar is big
it is bleeding
the wound is real
it is aching
i haven't reach fifty
i feel like sinking
i always thought i am fine
but no i am not okay
it is bad to blame
it is hard to be ashamed
those scars where really there
you just made up
another
or it is burning up

are there more than 60 songs
related to you and me
is that the reason
i skipped a lot
just to forget
just to dismiss
just to miss
for we shared a lot
for we kissed a lot
for those songs in exact moments
are perfect
just like us
before
in the past
not now
maybe i can try to listen again
but not for you anymore
for those times
for the memories
the end

there is earth, wind and fire
there is nothing's gonna stop us now
the time where best love songs are
still can't believe how
looking back on the hope
it brought something in my heart
both like a band with seventies
nostalgic as it may seem
being true is rare
being real is more
i guess
that will be all memories
after all

xo

will it be nice
if we can go back
is there a hack
to check on the time
the time we felt it
the time we made it
the time we create it
maybe looking back
might bring a lot
of those feelings
of those missing
of those running
of those kissing
of those chatting
just to realize
it was all for nothing

its like a nineties song
nostalgic
a bit wrong
a lot of memories
but all from the past
you glance
i glance
you linger
do you want more
but just for show
i know
but why
who are you again
we are once kissing
we are once hugging
we are once something
we are once us
but now it is a was