I can't breathe
I can't talk
I can barely ask someone anything
...Just lost in thought...
Trying to say one word
All they hear is me choking
Holding back one word
Why am I doing this to myself?
They look confused now
And crowd me to ask what's wrong
...I choke on one word
I can't say anything
No matter how hard I try...
"This is not a way to live, this is a way to die"
And how would I die?...
All the words *unspoken
Words I don't know how to say
Words I'm afraid of and long to say
...all at the same time
It makes me go mad
I don't think I'll ever be sane
...How does one do this to their self?
But all I know, is that you can't choose
You don't do this to yourself
Not on purpose anyways...
It happens on it's own...
Where you choke on one word
Your heart beats so fast it hurts
It feels like you'd explode
Salt water leaking from your eyes
Your brain just overflows.....
Gasping for air
As you shake uncontrollably...
And lie there and *wait
.....It's so hard to say one word
All you hear is a squeak
Me choking on one word
Like strangling myself till I have no more...
I am at war with myself
And both sides are losing...