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 Dec 2018 md-writer
michaela
forever
 Dec 2018 md-writer
michaela
i hope that when i meet forever,
it looks like you.
I wish I could record for you
The noise inside my head
The screaming and the voices
Of the words I've never said
But when my finger hits record,
The red dot starts to flash
And all I hear is silence
When I try to play it back
I struggle with tinnitus, and a lot of the time, I dont even notice it is there. It is only when I think I finally get some blessed silence that I realize how loud it really is. It is high-pitched and low-pitched at the same time. It's like a constant ringing in my ears, I don't know how else to describe it but this: I don't remember the last time it was silent in my head. I don't know quiet anymore.
And it was there
Deeply submerged
In darkness
And despair
That my soul sang
An old song
And I came home
You ask me who I'm missing
And I don't know how to say
That the one who I'm remembering
Is the me from younger days
I thought for a time that I missed the ones I used to be friends with, but I  don't. I miss the person who I used to be-the one who laughed louder, and had more friends, and who prayed more often. I miss the person who was happy, and who spent her days in the sun, reading books in the sunshine, laughing with her loved ones, hair blowing in the wind, windows down, music up, I miss that girl. And ****** I don't know how to get her back.
 Jul 2018 md-writer
Chloe
strangers
 Jul 2018 md-writer
Chloe
The sun glares down
Over lost, weary travellers,
Casting crimson
Over the rolling dunes.
Their shadows
Fall upon the sand;
An ocean of tiny little grains—
Moving,
Always moving
Under the wind,
Like travellers themselves—
Millions of them,
Moving,
Shifting,
Changing,
Constantly inconstant.
The lines atop the dunes—
The divide where light and dark
Separate,
Alter their shape
With the shifts in the sand,
Wriggling like a snake.
This view,
This world
Of rolling dunes,
Stark segregations of light and dark,
Sandy, cutting winds,
Was not made for strangers—
For these poor wanderers.
They wander,
Like tiny ants,
Upon an endless, reddened landscape,
So far from their nest—
Made up of grand structures,
Taller than they are vast,
Crafted carefully,
Brick by brick.
Unshifting,
Unchanging,
Stark and clear against the sky.
Far too compact
To allow room for wandering.
Glass and stone—
A wall against the winds.
A place
Where these strangers weren’t strangers.
It was there—
Right there.
Standing above the dunes,
Reaching out of the sand
Into a pink expanse of clouds.
But no,
These strangers
Remain strangers,
Wandering a world
Of harsh beauty
And wondrous irregularity.
This is a poem I wrote for Rattle's ekphrastic challenge. It involves writing poetry based on a selected image. I think it's really fun, and there are plenty of talented poets here who I think should give it a try.
https://www.rattle.com/ekphrastic/
I am but a jar of clay
And You are the Potter
I am but a breath of dust
You are a well of water

You are an ocean of hope
Upon which my life sways
I am but a helpless sheep
You lead me day by day

You are Prophet, Priest and King
Your word to me is sweet
Your love is an eternal spring
Beside which we will meet

And though You are a precious King
And I was made Your daughter
May my soul never forget,
I'm clay, and You are potter
You know of what I'm speaking
That icy cold of death
That tingling of your neck hairs
The anger on his breath

He tells you that he loves you, though
And that is why this works
But still his arms are cold as snow
And every blow still hurts

With every scar he leaves you,
Tears run down your face
He asks you why you're crying so
And says "Everything's okay"

But as you shudder, freezing
And goosebumps flood your skin
You feel your remorse leaving
And letting him come in

His arms-the ones that bruise you
For now seem warm and safe
But your mind betrays you
Those arms will start to chafe

No, no, he never loved you
For loving doesn't hurt
And even when he found you,
His heart was a desert

And in the years they'll wonder
Why you never spoke
Of the pain that he afflicted
And horrors that he wrote

But they wouldn't have listened
For they don't understand
That enclosed by his hurtful fist
Was a loving hand

And why would you ever
Betray that loving touch
For though the scars hurt so,
He loves you oh so much
You ask me why I'm leaving
It's really plain to see
The point of my departure
The lies that you told me

I let you get close to me
And let you steal my heart
You were a devil in disguise
From the very start

I choose to be the heart-breaker
I'll be the one to leave
But now I lay awake all night
Just trying just to see

"This was my fault", the voices say
They tempt me to believe
The one in wrong wasn't you
The voices say it's me

But one day I will begin
To see that from the start
The one at fault wasn't me
For you-thief- stole my heart

And with it, you took my will
To breathe, and eat, and live
The longing I had to go on
You just wanted to win

Well there you see, I'm broken
I hope your happy now
All you wanted was to be king
And now you wear the crown.

But more than anything I hope
That it's not what you thought
I hope that you are miserable
For devil, you've been caught.
"I want it because..."
"But I'm already broken..."
"I can't change..."
"You don't care..."
"I can do whatever I want..."
STOP.
LIES.
I...

But...

But I want...

STOP

breath

I am nothing

STOP!
YOU ARE WORTH IT
NO MORE COMPLAINING
THINKING YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE HURTING
STOP
STOP
STOP


Stop fighting yourself *

Look up

looks down*
STOP

FACE IT

but...
STOP.

Think

open your eyes

get up

hold your head high

But I can't...

YES YOU CAN.

DO IT.

if only you understood you can't fully control every day
come on child
listen to my words
stop feeling bad about yourself
STOP
because you are missing the wonderful, mystical moments with your head down
There is a war in my head, one that is hard to win. I want to sit and fall yet there is something....someone pushing me to STOP crying and to stand up.
To the long car rides
And the junk food trips
To the loud radio
And miscellaneous gifts
To the goodbye hugs
And “Hello agains”
To the happy beginnings
And all the sad ends
To the “You look goods”
And the “Eh, not so much’s”
And the deep conversations
That no one else touches
To the 5-minute arguments
And later apologies
And the “How do you do this?”
And the help with technology
To the I-can’t-hear country songs
And the speaker-vibrating bass
And the dealing with people
With undeserved grace
To the long midnight laughter
‘Till we’re told to shut up
And the splitting of drinks
Between two paper cups
To the cooking our own stuff
‘*** we’re just that cool
And the angry frustrations
With people at school
To the late-night shrieks because of the mice
And letting them go because we’re so nice
Here’s to the worst times
The bad, and the good
And here’s to “I love you”
And “By me you’ve stood”
I love you, dearie
And I always will
So here’s to 18
And time standing still
To my sweet, sweet cousin. Happy 18th.
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