Over and over
I have felt the love that sets a heart free
Over and over
I have felt the hurt that cripples
Over and over
I have built myself back up again
Over and over
I have tried to be optimistic
Over and over
I have given love one more shot, and then I'm done
For real this time

How many more times will I repeat this cycle?
Over and over until I die?
How many more times can I restore my heart?
Over and over until I run out of glue, cement, and paint?

All I want is to be done.

m.h.

I turn my eyes upward
To gaze at the vast sea of stars
So many that they outnumber me by millions and billions and trillions
I am overwhelmed  
And taken over by beauty
I am entranced by the twinkling
Of bursts of energy in the night sky
I am humbled
All these stars
All this space
Make my problems seem insignificant in the
grand scheme of the universe
But then I remember
That I am a part of the universe
Albeit a minuscule role in an endless space
However, I am
Involved
Nonetheless

m.h.

I still believe in love
But I don't believe love lasts
I still believe in promises
But I don't put any faith into them
I still believe that everyone has a soulmate
But I fear that there are too many people for me to find my own

I still believe in love
I believe it lasts if work is put in by both lovers
I still believe in promises
If they come from a place of genuine care and honesty
I still believe that everyone has a soul mate
And I hope mine is preparing for me

m.h.

I always cherished 11:11
Because it was a chance to wish for whatever I wanted.
Some days I would wish for new things,
Some days I would wish for a new life,
Some days I would wish that something would go right.
Whether my wish was fulfilled or not, I cannot remember.
But, what I do recall is that
There was magic in those numbers.
There was hope.
I would wish and wish everyday at the same time, hoping that one day my wish would come true.
And with you, it did.

On one particular day when I was at a low, I wished that someone would come along who would make me happy and never leave me.
I wished that I could have someone In my life to be there for me
And love me
With all they have.
I wished for a person who would be their true self around me and someone I could be completely myself around.
I wished for someone to come into my life that I could love with all I could possibly give.
I wished for someone who would complete me.
I wished for you.
I didn't know it was you in particular at the time, but I spoke my wish into existence and then you appeared shortly after.

Maybe we don't have to wish for Things at a certain time in the day.
Maybe we just have to speak what we wish for out loud for the earth to hear, and then set something into motion to help it come true

You have always been what I wished for at 11:11, because all my life I have wished for love and happiness.
And you are my wish come true.

m.h.

All that I am is you.
All that I do is you.
You are in the air I breathe and in the beats of my heart.
You are in the rain that falls and the sun that warms my face.
You are the kind words spoken and beautiful words I read and write.
You are everything.
You are my everything.
All that I am is you.

m.h.

Oh, how I wish you could have been there.
For all the times before when I was alone and down on my luck.
For all the times I was on top of the world and in love with life itself.
I wish you could have been beside me to see all the beautiful things and places I have seen.
I wish you would have been there to hold my hand and comfort me when I needed someone.
I wish that I would have known you sooner.

But I look back on my life and its events, and all signs point to you.

Everything that has happened to me has lead me to you.
I look back on all the relationships that didn't work or friendships that fell through,
And all signs point to you.
You may not have been there for all the good and bad times, but I know that I will share the good and bad of the future with you.
All signs have guided me to you, and I didn't even know it.

m.h.

The over arching goals of a majority of the world's religions are to be a good person so you will be repaid in the afterlife.
And I can say that I've never had more drive to be a better person each day that I wake up until I fell in love with you.
You are everything I believe in.
You are what I want to commit to.
You are my religion.
You are my church, my place of peace and comfort.
You are my holy book, where I go to for guidance and you keep me on a straight path.
You are my congregation, you hold me up and support me when I need you, and also when I don't.
You are my religion, because you give me purpose.
You are my religion,
And I believe in us.

m.h.