lil - Hello Poetry

lil Oct 2021

firsts

so this is what it feels like to be so happy
im sorry i took so long
first kiss at a green light isnt too bad
is it the indie wish your heart desired?

this is the first time i was able to picture the face behind the lips, i want to see you again but i know you are sleeping right now

#happy

lil May 2020

controllable variables.

pink and purple paint my eyelids
glitter touches the corner

i go to the bathroom
stand and take a photo
trying to be beautiful
for people who are not worth it

overcompensating
trying to find the feelings
that i haven't felt for nine weeks

lil May 2020

Untitled

i cried for the first time in a while
i held my face
in my own hands
and let the loneliness seep in
wondering when my hands will be someone else's

i don't know
how do i feel better
from six feet of distance

May 2020

Soni

Love me

I've been thinking
I've been dreaming
And... I've been nightmaring

I want to love him
I want him to love me
Learn about me and then still love me

I want him to hear of my gruesome times
and then kiss me with such surety
that it helps my soul stop quivering

talking about your dark past can be scary, but for the right person, it'll make you all the more beautiful to them

#love #dark #past #him #me #her

Apr 2020

Lyda M Sourne

three a.m.

It's 3am

I'm on the phone
No one's awake and I'm alone

It's 3am

The radio's on
Songs are played on lonely station

It's 3am

I'm in my bed
My eyes are open and sleep has fled

It's 3am

I'm on the balcony
The sky is dark and just quite scary

It's 3am

Some windows have lights
Could they also not sleep tonight

It's 3am

I'm still awake
When will life ever give me a break

Insomniac nights are the worst. And it's been going on like this for quite awhile.

#nights #insomnia #poetry #lonely #alone #empty

lil Apr 2020

do you regret it?

i am not ashamed of the parts
you saw of me
you should be ashamed
of what you did with them

they always take pieces of my soul and release them to the world. they were meant just for you.

#sad #soul #love

lil Apr 2020

error 404 looking for connection

just keep telling yourself
everything happens for a reason
in hopes that
the numbness
and longing
for connection
fades
i was stupid for thinking you could help me with that problem

yes these are all about the same person:/

#teenage #connection #quarantine #love #youth