i am not ashamed of the parts
you saw of me
you should be ashamed
of what you did with them

just keep telling yourself
everything happens for a reason
in hopes that
the numbness
and longing
for connection
fades
i was stupid for thinking you could help me with that problem

so this is what it feels like to be so happy
im sorry i took so long
first kiss at a green light isnt too bad
is it the indie wish your heart desired?

you only talk to me at night
red flag they say
you can't see the difference between flags when the lights in your room are red
you only send me pictures of your face
no words
no response to my words
i can't see the red flags
and even if i could
i would pretend i couldn't