Believe it or not
in my twenty three years of life living on earth
i have never fall in love
not even once

But look at me now
being in a relationship with someone i just met
asking someone i just met to be my girl
im truly pathetic

being her my first girlfriend
and soon might be my first love
and who knows
she might be my first kiss as well..

right now i dont know what comes into my mind that i get my self into this position
the very first minute that we've been in a legal relationship
i already want a break up (im cruel!)

coz for this is a forbidden love
between two forbidden persons
if i did fall
im afraid to have my first heartbreak.

its been a really long time
and finding love is like looking a piece of rice in the middle of nowhere
i have been waiting
and its hard to have a short patience
but who would have thought that i could wait this long
so long that i have routed  my self in this place
and let my feet to have grown its own roots
and then i let go of the feeling that love will come my way...
i guess not!
i met and fall in love with her
shes not beautiful
not popular
but shes the kindest person you will ever wish to have
in short everyone will fall for her eventually due to her kindness
and that includes the pathetic me
whose been waiting for his whole life but afraid to actually give his heart to someone he likes -- great, i know!
we're friends and going to and from the work
and we stayed that way for four and a half months
until i found the courage to ask her out (though just a pact/agreement or lets just say a PRETEND relationship for a month) haha... stupid i know!
i don't know whose worst, she or me?
she told me why month when we can do it for a year or better yet for life!.... and me OO................O..K
dumbfounded and so totally...malfunctioning XD

We always fight
We always do
To the extent where I no longer knew
As to what and where we started the fight
Many words have spoken
& it clouded our minds
No reasoning’s can come in our minds
We can no longer accept nor think about it
All we can do is complain & debate
With the most stupid things we remembered
We both throw a stone with anger & madness
We fought & fought & fought
We ended up hurt both in body & mind
The wounded physically heals
But the scars inside will never be mended

It’s easy to accept the changes that comes
But when that change changes us
Why is it so hard to accept us?
When we face that fact,
Reality slaps us with a very painful truth

No matter how long days have come to boredom
Or how bad the world may seem
Or even if you lose your freedom
There is always something you can do to be happy
Only trying can make a difference
The way you view the world will stay as it is
If moving forward means change
And change means a door to the future
Why not take one step ahead
And smile for a brighter future