On the dark side of the planet ghosts and spirits roam, under rocks and sand, hidden like the truth They weep silently, waiting to be uncovered & studied thoroughly.. She said she wanted to have a baby I gave her a kiss instead. Lock and load this cigarette I move it closer to my head, lips on the filter I light the trigger. The same outcome as blowing my brains out. except ones instant & the other is terrible, slowly and painfully destroying me, I decide to stay another night to see familiar faces one more time.. It hurts. Dealing with pain and knowing I'm going to die.
"I need some magic to keep me alive" If I knew how this game was played, The price I'd pay would have been an arm & a leg.
My face is expressionless,Feeling sick to my stomach I fail to cry. I'll hug you one last time, you're eyes aren't open, you're chest is still pumping so I say my goodbyes. stomach becomes like knots, only the sweet breath of a cigarette can untie. Leather jackets & furnished hotels, 7/11 & midnight coffee runs. Too surreal, conspiracies of a wicked crime start to arise in my mind. "This happen to fast Someone is to blame. There is a bad guy" Only time will tell if that part of mind was telling the truth.

evening
my Japanese friend returns to his room
I sit in mine
listening to the sound of rotting wood
Then she comes again
sneaking past the sleeping attendant
she looks 14
‘You want make nice nice’
No, I don’t want ‘nice nice’, I say again
She laughs
I refuse, leave my gray fungus covered hotel
walk into a temple
Rows of orange robed monks sit all around
Death not a mystery
He lies in front of me
Burning in his saffron robe
Orange smoke spiraling up
joining night clouds and moon
At midnight
they will come and take his bones
Not a mystery
later, I sit with Buddhist children
playing a guitar
They sing melodies of the east
our voices spiraling up
joining orange clouds and saffron moon

It is not yet midnight

I ache for our simple pleasures
For our tired, languid, gestures
For our vested, fruitful, leisure
Though our time and distance often measured
While both our suppressor
Let us never accept lesser
Than our treasured
Than our together