Sometimes I look at my sister, Alex
And can't help but worry that someday
She'll lose her true love in the same way that i lost you.
I got you back just to lose you again
And i mean, i know that they say if you love someone you have to let them go, but where do i go, where can i go without hearing your name and seeing your face everywhere? .. It's you in all the coffee shops, it's you in the subway shop, it's you on all the trains that lead nowhere and it's you i hear telling me that i'll move on, i'll get there. But the truth is, i don't think i can.. You are the most beautiful and most amazing girl I've had the privilege to love, and you're the most beautiful and amazing thing I've had to lose. I didn't know you for 300 years, actually, i knew you for just the one year but what we had felt like it could've lasted an entire life time. I'm writing this letter in hope that it reaches you in another life some way or another because i..  i need you, i miss you.. i love you
..But i can't have you can i?

....Well, there's nothing 'magical' about heartbreak is there?.. Not even for a wizard.

when i laid eyes on you,
or maybe perhaps,
you laid eyes on me
it felt like a miracle took place

i guess
you somewhat
stitched my heart together
once again

my skin
had been
an array of
deep lines

as you touched
my lines
you connected them
making them look as if they were constellations

you gave me stars
and the moon to see them
it was beautiful
they were my stars

"beautiful", you murmured
as you left
a litter of kisses
on my collarbone

you held my hand
like it had been
the only thing
you ever wanted

you took my pain
away with every kiss
and you erased my lines
with every smile

you believed in me.

you healed me.

(b.d.s.)

Disappointing
the way my hope descends  
like a spiral staircase  

Confused
I'm left wondering why
I even bothered

Desperately*
hinting at the reaction
I crave your response

Crushed
my needs float over your head
like a renegade balloon  

Deflated
I retreat within myself
you notice and ask why

Defeated
I utter the same two words
Nothing's wrong.

Anxiously
I wrestle with the idea
of spilling my guts to you

Shamefully
my ego tells my heart to let it go
I don't need your validation

Truthfully
this game we play  
has only one player

Alone
I realize you never understood
the rules of my mind's games.  

Sadly
Yours actions tell me that
you never cared enough to learn.

If you look up "love"
In the dictionary
There shouldn't be
A definition
"Love" cannot be confined
By a sentence
Or a phrase
If you ask me
What I think "love" is
I could not answer
In words

All I know is
When you look at me
With those *******
Ocean eyes
And grin at me
With the smile that
Stops my world,
I feel the pressure of my heart
Compressing
And expanding
Simultaneously

I can't tell you
How I know I'm in love
I can only love you
And hope that it's
Enough

"I'm not saying you're wrong,
I'm just saying you're a hypocrite."

A life of despair and sorrow
Not knowing if I would have a tomorrow
Yet my eyes were caught up in the sparrow
My past reflection in being committed
My remembrance in my dedication
It was my prayers being alone
My outcry in what was shown
My life my stuck on a record of thought
Determination was going to be my sought
It was God’s hand leading me on
It seemed like the understanding was long
However I knew it was church where I belong
The praying hands in giving me strength
Death seemed ever so close
But God’s word being look beyond
I found myself living among
What was a rough road?
It was a heavenly vibe in being a glorious story ever told
I lived to breathe and smell my own testimony
The enemy tried to make me doubt
But deep within my heart and soul, it was mercy that made me shout
My tongue being more than just words
It was my own sentences in finally being heard
There was a song in my voice
Being close to thee became my choice
My fulfillment in God’s request
He help me see better and not settle for less
My eyes were open
My heart was clear
It was God all along that I hold so dear
My past being more than a reflect
It my forgiving soul that I chose to elect
It was my honest heart in what God would expect
Yet God is mighty and the Devil being in reject
The past being put last, but it is God who gives an individual class.