never knew all this time
your curiosity for me
was just as much as mine was for you
when the lights are off
and the doors are closed
you're in my fantasies
we're in your car
you are aggressive in them
i knew it could never happen
until you said that
in your condo to me
you're out of state
where are you
now that you want me
i need you so bad
i'm a *****
for wanting the boy that someone has claimed
but the boy doesn't claim them
the secret affair has begun
never to leave the bed
our lips will be sealed
and our tongues will be at war
and our hands will explore
every part of each other's bodies
and you'll bite my neck
just like i've been waiting for

another cup of coffee and a few more cigarettes
is all i need to replace the thought of you for a minute or two

i dont think its healthy
to be at constant worry if im gonna lose you
i dont think its healthy
to only listen to the music that you like
no, i dont think its ******* healthy
to be lying in my yard looking at the stars in complete awe
but wishing i could be staring at you instead

I never could stand cigarettes
That was just the way it went
But now they remind me of your lips and
I think I love their scent

Moon so full and
Look so lonely but oh
So beautifully bright
Tonight.

Oh, look!

A dragon
Breathing fire
Going to eat you.

Now it is a
Woman's face
Going to kiss you.

Alone again,
Not a clouds
Around you.

Not even
The winds
Blowing.

Not a sound of
Airplane in
Site.

Not even the
Last trip train
Horns tonight.

Or the usual
Cars speed up
Their tires.

Not even the
Dogs barking or
Roasters cocking.

You've been
Up early
Tonight.

What
Are you
Thinking?

So I sit and hope for it to be over,
Praying that I'll remain sober;
As I overlook the sunrise
Watching it's slow demise
Atop a scenic mountainside.
I'd ask myself over and over, 'why-
You found love with someone else
Yet I found myself begging for help
Only to bear that I've fallen silent
of always being in complete reliant
On your shoulders when I needed to cry
And your warm words when I wanted to die'.

I cast my eyes on the sunset
Watching all that it begets,
Only to realise no matter how
That simple yet quotable vow
We promised to each other
Of being eternally written lovers,
Yet we disparagingly fall apart
Unable to mend pieces of hearts
Crushed by the torrential waters
Into minimal multiple quarters.

I wanted you so bad to turn back,
Yet you left without ever looking back
And I had hoped I didn't see you walk away;
For that moment is seared into my memory even today.