Please be strong; Please be brave,
You never told me
You wouldn't stay.

Why get invested
When it all disappears,
Why even stay?
What's the point to being here?

I am strong,
I am brave.
No one said
I had to stay,

But I will stay,
Because staying
Was my intention
All this time.

I will not leave,
That type of life
Just doesn't suit me.

I know at times,
I'm one for strife,
But I'm going to be here
With you, for life.

Graces everyone with her presence,
lights up the world with her smile,

Where does the light come from?
Where does the darkness hide?

Look into her eyes
you'll find where the truth lies.

A shattered heart,
a numb soul.

Darkness lies within,
breaking her apart

Like a candle,
light is what the world will get

While she slowly melts
into her shadow.

Cease to exist
Sounds much better than death
What the hell is left
Even to do
But regret
Or reflect I mean
You know,
Keep thinking
Could be
Or what could have been
Had I been
Internally
Set to leap
Into ready
As I’ll never need
The profession
Successes
The 1st world excesses
Unrest
In the rest of its
Climatic messes
Just nest with me here
For a little bit longer
Just sit with me,
Hear
In my heart
The warmonger

If I walk down this path
Will you follow me ?
Hold my hand
Soothe  me
Let our shadows intertwine

Will you not be by my side
Every step of the way
Be judgemental
Question me ?

This path of life
Is mine alone
No book or map to guide me
Just a mind wandering
Like my soul
Free

They say it's unhealthy to hold in your emotions

But what about memories

What if I bury them so deep inside of me that the cavern of my soul let's me forget all the bad things that have ever touched me

It's better to live in a blissful denial

Every so often light shines inside the darkness, urging me to remember as if remembering will heal these wounds

These scars that have molded into my pores and become one with me

There is no erasing them only accepting

In my sweet blissful lies I tell myself I can live with my truths.

I ran from demons
across my life,
through the forest
of my dreams,
down a path
which had no end,
or at least it never seemed

I walked,
I ran,
I swam,
I rowed,
across a sea
I never owned.

A wall appeared,
forever each way.
No forward,
no back,
I turned to face my prey.

My hands
began to shake.
My breathing
stopped.
Eyes shut tight  
and opened once again.
To my knees,
I began to fall
only to face
a broken mirror on the wall