I am at peace with my pain

I feel the flames
and I no longer mind the burning

They cook my skin
sizzling
smoking

And I do not mind

I feel the holes burned in my body

And I do not mind


They are just there

A part of me in the same way that my nose sits on my face
Or my tongue lives in my mouth


I have stopped fighting

And I feel at peace

Here I am
Here is all of me
Wrapped in this body

leave me where you found me

rotting among the flowers

the roses almost cover the stench

and if you squint
i'm almost pretty


the pink petals compliment my green skin

It’s easy to give up
When there’s nothing left to fight for

I guess she was the one
And I was just for fun








I don’t blame you
I don’t want me either

You’re crying right now
I’m not
And there’s nothing that hurts more
Than to know you’re hurting more than me

Everyone deserves love

Not everyone deserves your love

This pounding in my chest
It hurts my love
It hurts so much

Because my mind well it's decaying
And what used to help has stopped
Everything has stopped

So I need you
I need you to do me a favor

Take my heart
And unravel the veins
Like you're untying your shoelaces
Then kiss me tenderly
Let me close my eyes
And weave flowers in my hair
(daisies if you can)
And tip the mortician so she does a good job on me

Then when my body turns cold
And my lips are sealed with glue
Just know in my final moments
I was thinking of you

So wipe away your tears and get rid of that frown
Cause baby I'll be happiest when I'm in the ground

I just want someone to look at me and think

"How precious."

I walked to school today

Knowing I cried myself to sleep last night

Knowing no one knew

Knowing that was my power that I owned over everyone else

My fingers
Tracing your arms
Climbing your skin
Finding your neck

Placing my ear
Against your chest
Hearing your heartbeat
Your warmth
Seeping into my smile

Peering up
To find your loving eyes
Waiting for me

You
Leaning down
Pressing your smile
Against mine

Its 3:47 in the morning
You're asleep
I'm in hell

I want you to know that if you want someone to love, I’m available. Because the second I saw you I fell in love with all that you are. But you talk like we’re friends, and talk is all that matters these days.

So if I can’t sing you to sleep at night
I hope whoever does has a prettier voice.