loving you turned me into a poet both the artist and the muse all at once knowing i'd sing for you just as quickly as i'd bleed to make your world more beautiful
even now i'd describe the sea a thousand ways just to capture your shade of blue.
do you know what its like to wake up every morning and be disappointed that your eyes open? that your heart still beats and there is still air going into your lungs?
like you know how like how you did a few weeks ago like i’m a meaningless ant
**** me
like how you do every time i dedicate words to you like how you drown yourself in your own convictions like how you’ve seen others do before
**** me
like you would if we were not friends like i know you want to like i know you have before
**** me
like i wish you would like i wish you would jab the knife in my heart to stop the pain like i wish you were actually honest in your beliefs like i wish you touched me with bloodied hands instead of careful ones like i wish you would get sick of everyone else and their bodies like i wish you would just be like everyone else so this wouldn’t eat me up inside like i wish you were proud of the things you discard like i wish i still appeared on your mind like how you do on mine like i wish you killed me instead of reviving me.
wrote this in like 10 mins just now. it started spilling out. the end inspired by “say it and mean it” by lucy blue.
just as I was getting used to you again it is time for you to leave once more I couldn't help falling for you when you were here now I must love you from a distance