your gone and im sick
someones gonna start throwing fists
******* people off is all i do
all i ******* want is you
so hard to be someone real
i hate these things i feel
stupid sentimentals
romance
and im depressed
how am i supposed to be good enough for you
i miss you so much
im craving everything
i miss your touch
coloring on you skin
i wanna let you in
in heart
to see my soul
look in my eyes
and
idk
i just miss you

I want you to say
I love you

e m p t y  s p a c e s

fill up my mind

She looked at me, and gave me that stupid, yet adorable, look she gave someone when she was confused.
Eyes sparkling, her head slightly cocked to the side.
I sighed and answered her question.

“You have galaxies in your eyes.
Sometimes, I have no control, I feel like I’m drowning, but then, you’re here.
And then I’m drowning in those eyes, floating in that ocean of stars.
You can walk in the rain if you want, and you can think no one can see you cry, but I can.
I can tell, when your eyes are red and puffy, how you put on extra makeup and nice clothes when you want attention, you can burn everyone that comes close to you, but it won’t help.
I know that feeling when you’re trapped in your mind, no way out. When you know the sun is there, shining, but there are blackout curtains, over your eyes, and it’s been so dark, for so long, that you can’t even tell if the sun even still burns.
When you feel like you’re going nowhere.
Well, I don’t care if you burn me. I can stand the heat, because love, I’ve been cold all my life.
And if you’re going nowhere, then buy me a ticket, because I’m going with you.”

he says somebody will love you
but i don't somebody
i want him

It hurts

My friend
Thought this was called
Hello property
I laughed
So ******* hard
What the hell
Is wrong with me
I'm still laughing

******* blood
tell me if it's sweet

are you the person
i've been waiting to meet

would you like to see my blade
darling, it's okay if you're insane

i love the way you play the game
i know you're not afraid of shame

******* flesh
tell me if it's warm

they're afraid of just one
they should see the swarm

i love the taste of chaos.
the smell of gasoline.

it's pathetic that they're scared of me.
darling, i'm not mean.

there's something in the air.
i can feel it in my lungs.

i don't mind if you scream,
i always do it in tongues.

******* blood
tell me if it's sweet.

you're the flavor of the person
i've been waiting to meet

what happened
to all the people who cared about me?

hearts in his eyes
he couldn't deny
that he loved her

clouds in the sky
seemed to imply
it was softer

a wink and smile
and a little while
she took her toll on him

she was the definition of magic
but it was a little bit tragic
how she teased him relentlessly

she licked her lips
catching the sunlight
when he looked at her
he thought he'd be alright

scream

bodies
shaking
and quaking
with love
so close
to too much
too close
to not enough
arms around me
only in my dreams
lips on mine
love bursting from the seams

i'm sorry for being human

i truly hope your feeling better
darling you are all that matters

your skin is warm, beneath your shirt.
i like making you laugh.
your laugh fills me with joy
leaving me craving for more when you stop
i like walking beside you,
our hands touching sometimes
telling stories
of a better life
dandelions
in my hair
collecting in my brush
and floating away
when i shake my head
walking to your house
to eat strawberries
and still taste them on my lips
after i leave.

Wait

I think I love you

I think

But

H I M

Wait

I love you

But

D I S T R A C T I O N S

Wait

I think I love you
But you don't love me

Wait

You mean the world to me

But
Not enough

N E V E R



Enough

But I love you

I'm pretty sure

i keep wasting time
i never asked for so much

Everyday, stuck in my head.
Sometimes I don’t know if I’m alive or dead.
Every single moment you’re on my mind.
Every second, every minute, all the time.
I’m too tired to keep running.
I never saw you coming.
I think I might of lost my mind.
This insanity is one of a kind.
Because you don’t know.
It’s going too slow.
I just can’t keep lying.
But for you, I will keep crying.
You’re a part of me that I don’t want to erase.
But because of them I constantly have to change.
Please tell me, am I worth it?
Should I take the hit?
Do I really deserve you?
Do you maybe need me too?
Am I not enough?
I’m close enough to touch.
I don’t understand.

I’ve got a secret.
That if I told, no one would keep it.
So if I tell you,
You’ve got to keep it, too.
You have to promise not to tell.
I keep my secret locked up in a well.
I keep it, but it’s ravaging my mind.
I don’t want to think about it but I do all the time.
There’s a storm, and it’s coming.
I want to stop but I have to keep running.
There are words that have left.
But at the same time have been kept.
I remember every single part.
It’s hidden in the darkest part of my heart.
A circle, it’s in.
The light is growing dim.
You never would have seen it coming.
My secret, it’s absolutely stunning.
The darkest corners of my mind are alive
With whispers of my secret.
I have a secret and it’s hidden deep.
I have a secret that I’m going to keep.

I feel like
I'll never be enough
I'm tired of being nothing
But maybe something
Is overrated

I like to make wishes.
Sometimes,
when the time is right.
11:11
2:22
Dandelions,
are also
an excellent source of wishes.
Occasionally,
fallen eyelashes
flutter down,
and I blow them from my fingertips.
The clasp
or a necklace
touches the charm.
How
do you make wishes?

i try really hard
for nothing

It's storming outside
And I realized
I can't be happy without you in my life
The rain plays a rhythmic sound
Drumming against the window
It reminds me, makes me think of how
You would gently tap your fingers on my back
The leaves pressing against the glass
Made me think of your soft lips pressed against mine
Watching dark clouds pass
Thinking of those good times
Thinking of you
And rainy days
Holding you and feeling your breathing
Lost in a diamond haze
Missing you and crying with thunder
Memories hurt
And I can't help but wonder
Did you love me like I love you?

she said she love you
and you gave her your heart
then she left and you fell apart
all you wanted was to have something real
but you left your smile on your face for her to steal
she not here to kiss the cuts on your skin
you should have known that you would never win.

you let his poison under your skin
because you were so desperate to let him in
so desperate for the taste of his lips
that you let him tear you till he covered you in rips
you miss the stories that he would spin
no one ever told you that love was a sin
watching your tears fall to the ground
hoping there soon will be enough to drown

i'm sorry for trusting her.
you're so beautiful.
i love you.
i'm sorry.

And I am tired
Of feeling this way
Tired
As empty
But full
Of something
Something that makes me feel
Disgusting
I am sick
Of knowing
How close happiness is
For others
And knowing
That I'll never be

I wait eagerly for you to return
Though I know your presence is temporary
I still swallow up every morsel of attention I can get
And though I have a fear of needles
I shoot each bit of love you can muster for me into my veins
I beg you silently to stay
With actions I'd never think would exist within me
Each time you go, it's unexpected
And each time, I tremble in your absence
I crave the high you set me on
The feeling of being adored
Of being worth something
Anything

Lighting strikes at the base of my roots.
It climbs up my limbs
Charring my flesh It bites into me
Chewing my nerves
Stabbing needles into my veins
I cannot move.
I am intertwined with this place.
I am bound here.
Lightning does not strike once.
It strikes again.
Again.
And again.
And every time, It is excruciating.

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am i
really different
from everyone else?

what i have i done

You are the morning light
Streaming through the gauzy curtains that dress my window
Striping my skin in ribbons of sunshine
I am the canvas of your dawn.
You are the cool flame that shoots across the sky
Every night that my thoughts settle upon your sweet face
Brilliantly throwing itself through the darkness of late evening
I am the one who wishes for you.
You are the craters in the moon
Imperfect and untouched
Leaving identical impactions on my heart
I search for your face in the glow of her own.
You are the fervent blazing of the sun
Radiating love that scorches the flesh
Shining down on me like beams of genuine joy
I am infinitely grateful for your eternal reverberation of tenderness.

your teeth were sharp
and mine were filed down
i let you gnaw away at me
although i would have let you go for the throat
tearing away from my flesh
my precious artery gushing like my broken heart
if only i had been delicious
maybe you'd still be lapping up my blood
nibbling on whatever's left of me
but apparently i wasnt satifactory
so you left behind my mangled remains
i was your *****
until i wasnt
i was your mutt
until i wasnt
until i was your meal
still stuck in your teeth