i've seen a sin
with thousands of tiny seam
its smell was concealed
by a shameful sinless silk.

a dark concoction shaded into white
with its pointed armour
covered by a dull cold rusted metal

i use it
i always.

to huddle
these tons
of horrifying
hurtful truth.

I wonder how life could possibly be so fair
when at some times by the tick and tack of the clock
someone comes…
stays
and goes.

I wonder how life deserves a smile
when at some places by the ups and downs in the roads
and in humps
and rocks in our feet
someone has to stare
and pull
and push us
into somewhere we never desired to be.

And when time comes
I wonder how I could possibly know how to look
in a dreamed perfect photograph of the past
dusted…
rusted by the time
and forgotten by the line
when at this very moment, I wasn’t really eating
the most delicious memories
to look in my own future’s timeline.

Red huge moon let me see your face
On a cold dark night I needed light.
Red huge moon may you show me your smile
For this moment I needed strength.

I’ve been in loved with an Adonis
A man I’ve always been dreaming.
I used to stare at those sweet smiles
From a distance I count his laugh.

I’ve been lonely, I’ve always been.
I cried for him, he didn’t cared.
I’ve been in blue, everything had always been.
I called his name, he didn’t even heard.

Red huge moon I beg to show me yourself
Red huge moon before I go to sleep.
Red huge moon as I dream he would love me, too
In an unattainable dream under the impossible red huge moon.

If I could only run backward
I’ll place my feet in front my back
The prints I had will then I’ll have
And in that road I’ll meet thy path

If I could only run the time
I’ll move it in its counter route
Its hands will have a heart like mine
The moment’s time’ll last for long
I’ll be setting an alarm – remind me soon

if I could only hold your hand…
once
again
when time still favors me
in that pale tiny dusted road
with the laughing shadows of you and me.

If I could only…
Change the period you just laid

Then maybe we won’t meet the end
This way
…

We were paper dolls
in a paper house
Door opens; windows closed
We see the chances
but miss all hopes.
We were paper dolls
hanging on the walls.

We were paper dolls
dressed like our Majesty.
You held your sword so tight
I lie my heart in you
And when the dawn is nigh
all candles' lit were blown
we were back once more
in our own separate traps.

And again,
we were paper dolls
played by one thing
we never had...

You've renamed
love and let it be
known to me

only to be reminded
of why I had to forget it
on the first place.

What reason
will be enough
to take the risk?

drive?
thirst?
longing?
desire?
intimacy?
love?
life?

I can’t find a word.
Has nothing to say,
yet heart’s full of terms to vent.
Can’t even catch the right punctuation mark to fit
this feeling that’s growing from mine entire being.

If you won’t mind,
please…
allow me to steal a single smile of yours
I just want to put it in my pocket
to hold on when your hand
is ready to wave

in an endless pain of good-bye.

Shiny sparklin’ sun’s rise
Smilin’ brightly lighting your face
Oh, what a day to remember
Your eyes hath spoke
When they met mine

Hey! I like those smiles
I count the colors in your mood
You laugh the softness in your soul
I memorized the stroke of each sound

‘twas one of a kind
Felt the scent of the sweetest haven
You told me your story
I felt my lips pronouncing mine

You’re so special
You never knew
And I wasn’t aware
I was falling hard

So so hard
I forgot how lovely you were
When you just told me
You once hath fallen
hard
For her
and only for her.

not words

but actions

Tell me something
more enchanting
than two souls
intertwined
long before
a single touch.

That crooked smile
those laughing eyes
we’re hand in hand
across the earth.
People don’t care
and so we don’t
I smiled in pain
as I looked at this silky little frame,
Yes…
we now share the same roof
but you weren’t really here.

We were the lyrics in every sweetest song one might hear
We collided in our own galaxy and made light out of it
You smiled and I counted the colors in your eyes
I felt like owning the universe knowing we were one.*

We were...
at least
we were.

If I said yes
Would I have not been in this agony right now?

If I said I will
Would I not be wandering alone by now?

If I’d been strong enough to tell the truth
Will I be happy ….
Far beneath the jungle of sorrow I am with
Right here
Right now
Seeing you glowing
With heart’s full of gladness

While mine very own’s
Savoring the truth
Of regrets.

If I…
if I only...
if I could just.

I would have been…
then maybe
**we would have been

step a foot
once...
twice..
thrice.

walk the pavement
and never look back.

walk.
run.
forget.

i wanted these.
i always.

can anyone tell me
how to start

when all my wants are
far different
from
what i truly feel?

Someone asked me
to define the real
meaning of love

I said
I never knew
nor even understood

He then held my hand

And right there
under the innumerable
stars and the million
tiny feelings
sparking around me,
a bizarre rhythm
hath reached the pitch

And though I never knew
nor even understood,

*I FELT.

The world’s spinning; mine hands were shaking
A smile once peek a heart then beats.
Yours is the smile I’ve ever seen
Though clouds above had turned to gray.
Yours is the voice I heard so soft
On winter nights I'll never be scared at all..

The rain hath blown; had swapped from the sun's tender smile
Yet rainbow turned its colors stunned
Blues stepped a foot; unraveled its wings.

Men do love
Birds can sing
When day is gone
My moon will shine…
I know…
For you
Once
Had
S
H
O
W
N
.