As the blood rolls down my arm
I remind myself that Im the only one who can hurt me
As the blood rolls down my arm
The thoughts inside my head subside
I think about the blood, the warmth, the redness
I run my finger over the blood and smear it
My entire wrist is blood red
I love it
But the thoughts come back
The pain comes back
And I pull the razor back out
And I let the blood roll

Okay I'm sorry
But I don't love you
You were too close of a friend
I didn't even want to risk losing you
But I gave it a shot
People always said,
My best friend was disguised as my soul mate
But in this instance it wasn't you
So I told you that and now you need your space
So now were not talking
This is what I was trying to avoid
I lost my best friend
Now I'm lost
Im sorry okay

Think less, Feel more.
Frown less, Smile more.
Talk less, Do more.
Complain less, Appreciate more.
Fear less, Love more.

I remember when I was the only one who liked you
You have always been in my heart
I remember when we hung out everyday for hours on end
You were my best friend & I was yours
But we got older..
And you got more attractive
Now many girls like you
I am still one of them
But I'm not as attractive as some of the girls who like you
So I don't get to talk to you as much
We have *** every once in a while
Because I just want something to remain between us
But we don't talk in front of other people anymore
We keep our affair a secret
You sneak over after school now
I miss the connection
I miss the feelings
Cause you don't have them anymore
But I still do
I still love you
But I wont tell you I still like you
In fear of losing our only remaining connection

Every time  I close my eyes you always come to mind
I try so hard to not think of you
I try over and over but i cant break loose from you
I m not saying that i think of you constantly, but i just cant deny the fact  that
every time my  mind wonders it always finds a way right back to you  
You are the first thing on my mind when i wake up and the last thing   when i go to sleep
I think of you every time I close my eyes I dont know what it is about you that makes me feel the way I do
Why am I stuck on you why cant i break free why