There are things you need to understand
That when you said you loved me and took my hand
In that moment I gave you my fear
In that moment I told you everything dear

Yet, there are things you must find alone
Things that I can never atone
Hidden scars that are carved into me
Scars that only you can see

I hope that when they become visible to the eye
That you don’t run and leave me to die
These scars are slowly killing me
Slowly destroying who I used to be

So please don’t run away
Help me heal day by day
You are the only one that can lift me above
You are the only one I love

I'm lost within the dangers of my mind
I'm unable to escape, scared as to what I will find
Stuck in an oblivion of hatred and fear
How did I end up here

Why is it I feel this way
Why can't I seem to make it go away
I am now unable to move stuck in place
It's then I realize me and my demon are face to face

Wretched and horrid the face of my fear
It stares at me hungry, knowing I don't belong here
but before this demon could take me away
I heard your voice so soft and loving say

*"I love you darling, you are going the wrong way"

Some say words can't hurt me
For those there is something you don't see
That words are communication
and can leave emotional laceration

They can decimate who you are
Either in your face or from afar
Words can be picked and chosen
To become a deadly poison

Don't underestimate the pen
Because the time you do is when
You will face the fire
That can only get hotter and higher

I lie to myself more then I have to everyone.

In the darkest of times, memories light up the darkness.

I regret a decision I have made
In these consequences I will wade
She gone now without a thought
Thinking of all the battles we fought

The thing is we are only human
We made decision on what we feel within
Sometimes they are good sometimes they are bad
This one was terrible, and I'm missing what I had.

That night I did not sleep
All I did was profusely weep
I realized what I had lost
and now I suffer the cost

When you left you took my words
You took my heart
I no longer hear the birds
I sit alone in darkness bitter and ****

I regret what I have done
Can you forgive me and admit you won
You blocked major contact
so how is my daughter? but I can't get that fact

I love you with no doubt
You are what living was about
I cry and your name I shout
but my voice has gone out

Please forgive this choice
I need to hear your voice
And to feel your touch
I can't stand this reality, I miss you too  much