If I woke up one day to not remember you

If I was a god,
I'll have all time in my hands.
But I'll still take hours from my watch,
To try to understand.

If I was a god,
I would be immortal, undying.
But I'll still shed my blood clots,
To stop you from crying.

A god if I was,
It would be fine to not care.
But I would, for your cause,
And other matters to repair.

If I were to be a god,
I can just not bother.
But when I see you hurt,  
Being a god wouldn't be an honour.

If I am a god,
I would live without fears.
But in case you forgot,
Your screams still haunt my ears.

If I was the god,
I would have control on your life.
But I'll let you control mine cuz
Without you, I won't survive.

You think you're good,
But you just misunderstood.
You think we should be perfect.
I don't wanna disrespect,
But we make mistakes.
Just give us a break.
Stop pointing out our flaws,
We're not breaking any laws.
It's a learning process.
So, be more modest.
You annoy me,
I'm sure you can see.
Change your attitude,
We'll be overwhelmed by gratitude.
Change for the better,
You won't regret after.

The pain that I never show,
Is the pain that you'll never know.

If ever you need a shoulder to cry on,
I'm always here.
If ever you need someone to talk to,
I'm always here.
If ever you need to be proven how much you're loved,
I'm always here.
If ever you need to see a will to keep going,
I'm always here.

Try as i may,
Beneath the ground was where i stayed.
I was a fool, i gave up colour for gray,
Eternal pain and suffering, that was my price to pay.

But as i felt helpless, the world fading from sight,
I saw the most beautiful light.
Could this be? my escape from this plight?
To escape from the gray, to be bathed in white?

With nothing but escape in mind,
I rushed towards it, hoping to rejoin mankind.
And as i approached it, the brightness made me blind,
But i could feel it, i was no longer confined.

A second chance, was what i had received,
A free man once more, i no longer had to grieve.
And as i walked, i look at what i had achieved,
I had escaped the gray, and for that i was relieved.

But as i walked, i realized something was awry,
I was no longer a man, but a soul in the sky.
I knew i was still dead, and for that i cried,
Even though it was my choice to die.