Nobody

Nobody Sep 2020

Jewels

You never make anyone smile,
you laugh if they cry.
You bring out my anger,
and all of my sighs.
You’re nothing I admire,
and everything I despise.
You’re all stupid and simple,
but think you’re so wise.
You mock the gentle,
then brag about being cruel.
Act like you’re so clever,
but you’re the biggest fools.
I really can’t stand
tools like all of you.
You’re all basic ugly rocks,
who think they're jewels.

#hate #bullies #cruel #rude

Nobody Aug 2020

Morningstar

Morningstar you shine in defiance of dawn,
giggling as I ordered the lights turned down,
disobeying my commands from above.
You're to be punished til I say it's enough.
I said there's no misbehaving in here,
you must like getting broken like a horse.
I'll have you shaking through your tears,
with your dignity thrown on the floor.
You better try to keep your mouth shut
or I'll smack you to keep you still.
You can strut when I tell you to strut,
you're my little mount to ride or ****.

Aug 2020

Empire

These songs...

These songs feel so familiar
These songs feel like death
I remember when I listened before
What they meant to me then
On nights covered in blood
From dozens of self-inflicted wounds
Depression a heavy fog in my head
Suicide in every thought
When my body felt foreign and strange
Nothing mattered
I just wanted it all to end....

So why... why do these songs...
They bring me comfort
I feel safe in their embrace

Perhaps I finally feel heard
I’ve acknowledged what I’ve felt
Accepted its existence
And I feel a bit more welcome
Living in my own mind

Or perhaps... it’s all happening over again

#songs #music #depression #suicide #life #comfort #peace

Nobody Aug 2020

Stars

My love always wants to shine
like a star waiting for the night.
His love gets us high
like a peaceful dove in flight.

We're nothing but silly fools,
the rest of the world doesn't exist.
We live for smiles and laughs,
sitting on clouds while we kiss.

Our love ever the fighter,
soars through the starry nights.
The magic of true love is what
makes them sparkle in the sky.

#love #happy

Nobody Aug 2020

Wishing

As soon as I opened my eyes
I was reminded you’re not really here.
My first thoughts today were of you,
and what you’d whisper in my ear.

So I guess I’ll lie awake in my bed
daydreaming you're holding me tightly,
wishing I could smell your sweet scent,
and feel your warmth inside me.

#love #lust #wish #daydream #*** #****

Nobody Aug 2020

Drunk

At times you take me too literal
it really depends on the day.
You know you make all the rules
in any clever game we play.

Other times I think
you don't want me to stay.
Then you tend to surprise me
with an earnest confession
that makes my knees shake.

My heart still always races
when I hear your singing voice.
I get as excited as child
playing with a shiny new toy.

While I read you like an open book,
my smile never leaves my face.
I'm completely drunk off you,
there's no pushing me away.