Forgive me, my love
My numb heart beats too fast
It twisted your words into lies
It turned your intentions to motives

My foolish heart makes me doubt
And you have gotten closer
Mend it, if you please
But make it quick

My deceitful heart will fool me
Its lies will be truths
And may never be honest again
But then neither will you

So please hurry,
Save my heart from freezing
For you're turning antagonist
Becoming stone

Don't stand so close to me,
I might love you.

"I don't want/miss/still love my ex
I'm a hundred percent sure of that.
It's the relationship I miss."

"Not the person?"

"Yeah. Not the person.
I miss the relationship part,
if that makes any sense.

It's the being there for each other,
the stories at the end of the day,
the comfort of their kisses,
the softness of their touch,
the sweetness in their voice
when they need your help
getting a can of vegetables
that's high up in the pantry."

"Not the person, right?"

"Right.
Or, perhaps I do miss the person
and the memories,
and I'm just lying to myself
to make it hurt less."

Your tears taste like vinegar;
bitter, angry, unforgiving.
Stare into the fire,
the dancing flame,
the warmth on chilled skin.
Reach out for it,
but never touch.
How did I become such a monster?
I didn't meet her until
the day she died.
I never understood:
This was living;
damaged, empty, alone,
but this was living.

I love science
But I wish I still wondered
why the sky is blue

I adore silence
but i wish innocence
can still be heard

In the serenity
I didn't choose
In the questions
i was forced to conclude

487

You love the Lord—you cannot see—
You write Him—every day—
A little note—when you awake—
And further in the Day.

An Ample Letter—How you miss—
And would delight to see—
But then His House—is but a Step—
And Mine’s—in Heaven—You see.

Sad woman, don't wave goodbye
The other-side is a lie
Sadness ends on death's lullaby
It's true that there is no pain afterlife
But you don't die alone
With you dies the person I'm friends with
So call me
Let my love embrace your whole
Your mother will sneak in your room, wrap her face with your bed-sheet and cry
Maybe she'll dig her face in your pillows and beg god to bring you back to life
That will go on for days
Your father; the strongest, will break down to pieces and never get back to his feet again
So scoot around the city and see
Thousands fancy the life that you're living
Death is not the only end to pain,
Love for life is
So fall in love with yourself
You're a friend,
My best friend
A daughter, a sister and the list goes on
Close your eyes to not see but you cannot get cold enough to not feel
You cannot die alone when you're so many
Pink Floyd and Led Zeppelin
The Doors and Queen
Dream Theatre's Dance of Eternity
And my wide jaws upon seeing DARKTHRONE in your playlist
Peanut butter and burned brown breads
Your evil smile when we laid the kitchen rat to rest
Kiss on the dance floor and how we avoided each other for days
How I laughed at everything that you wore and your bedroom's paint flakes
My first bottle of Malibu
Our first high and the succubus inside you
Gift me a lobotomy before you leave
Or erase everything from my memories
I will never be happy without you
Memories won't die with you

And i look up at
The sky, close my eyes
And breath the air
That once
blew Your
Scent.