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Jude kyrie Jan 2016
All Thats Left Of Me

I sit in the dark barroom.
The smell of whisky
sings like a dirge.
It’s a room where
hearts go to die.
I know why I am here.
Its my burden.
I know why she left me ….I know why
I remember the wedding.
I pull a creased photo
out of my pocket.
My God she is beautiful.
I must not go there anymore.
I am out of tears
now just the pain stays.
I look at myself in the picture.
So young and handsome.
My uniform white and gold
I am the brave soldier
she always wanted.
We look like movies stars.
Then I went to war
I can still see the carnage.
The roadside bombs
Children bleeding in the streets.
Women crying for dead
husbands and sons.
They followed me home
like ghost.
And when I slept
next to her beautiful body.
They came in my nightmares.
And made me scream
and weep like a child.
I lost my soul
In that war.
And one day
I lost her as well.
The bartender leans forward
and shows her cleavage.
But all I want is another drink.
Perhaps one more
Will stop me thinking.


To all who served and suffer with PTSD .
Blessings
Jude
Jude kyrie Sep 2016
The moonlight milky and pale
Reflected in her eyes.
Noticing the tears yet unshed.
As in her saddened heart
A single white rose
Bloomed in the precious
fertile ground.
That was all that was left
Of the love he gave to her.
perhaps love never really dies
But lives in a long sleep
Inside the human heart.
Occasionally awakening
To send us a flower
Made of memories.
Jude
Jude kyrie Oct 2015
She told me she loves
days of green
when soft rain falls.
yet she always
seeks shelter
when it rains.

She told me she loves
the hot hazy days of summer
when cloudless sky
and relentless sun
bake the earth
yet she covers herself
with sunblock
and sits below a shady tree
when its sunny.

She told me she loves
the feel of the wind
as it wails in the night.
yey she closes the windows
and shutters when it is windy.

That is why
I am terrified of her
for today
she told me
she loves me.
Jude kyrie Oct 2015
You taught me everything
that I know about
loving a woman.
You showed me the comfort
of a womans softness.
where I could float weightless
in velvet starry nights.
You taught me want and desire.
So hot it burned my skin.
you taught me to fall asleep
like spoons so close so safe.
You taught me to
give all my heart to you.
How to love you unconditionally.
Without question or
the need to know why.
You taught me to belong to you
and worship you above all others.
But when you left me
you never taught me
how to live without you.
Or how to stop my eyes from
burning with tears
like I am cutting onions
forever and ever
Jude kyrie Sep 2015
You taught me everything
that I know.about
loving a woman.
You showed me the comfort
of a womans softness.
where I could float weightless
in velvet starry nights.
You taught me want and desire.
So hot it burned my skin.
you taught me to fall asleep
like spoons so close so safe.
You taught me to
give all my heart to you.
How to love you unconditionally.
Without question or
the need to know why.
You taught me to belong to you
and worship you above all others.
But when you left me
you never taught me
how to live without you.
Or how to stop my eyes from
burning with tears
like I am cutting onions
forever and ever
Jude kyrie Apr 2016
In the bloom of the night
we lie together
Until morning light
first time of forever and
alone again never.

We have no past
no others but us.
all through the night
all through the night

Outside a lamplight flickers
inside we reach for us
The night bird
croons its song
our hearts now sing along

we have started
a journey so right
our hearts are in flight.
all through the night
all through the night
Jude kyrie Oct 2015
If you need a tender lover
I will do all you ever want.
If you’re hungry and need food
I will be your restaurant.
If you want to vent your anger
I will take it all and stand.
If you want a lifetime partner
Here my love, take my hand.
I want to be your man.
Jude kyrie Jan 2016
I know we are different
you and I.
you chasing everywhere
me standing perfectly still.
you move about your world
so different from mine.
your dreams are tainted
blue from the sky.
you are so close to the sun.
Yet I know how grounded I am
perhaps too close
to the roots of green earth.
I know you scare me.
but I will swallow my fears
like a pill.
and climb onto your flight.
we will soar upon
thermals from heaven.
Gliding like gracefull swallows.
And if ever I should fall
I will look into the
vastness of space.
And know that
I have been there
and it was you
who took me
Jude kyrie Aug 2016
I know we are not the same you and I.
We move in two different worlds.
You with dreams that light up the night sky
Your fingers touch the sun
with hope and power.
Me so grounded
to mother earths green roots.
Perhaps too grounded.
I know you frighten me
with your flights
into the heavens.
But I will swallow my fears
like a pill.
And climb onto your flight
We will soar over the heavens
like graceful swallows.
And if ever I should fall
I will gaze forever
into the vastness of space.
And I shall know
that it was you
who took me there.
Jude kyrie Sep 2016
Maybe one summer night
a nearby star will
supernova
and create a giant black hole.

So powerful
the sun and moon
will be swallowed
into its unknown  depths.

so fast even
the earth will disappear
in lightening speed.

perhaps then my love
I would think of you
for the last time
Nerdy ladies like love poems LOL
Jude
Jude kyrie Mar 2017
A Love Poem In only !1 words
By
Jude Kyrie

*You take my breath away.
For you
the moon and stars
for you,
my love
only for you
Jude
Jude kyrie Dec 2015
For you
The moon and stars.
sometimes less is more
jude
Jude kyrie Sep 2015
It is the summer days
of tranquil thoughts?
I lie on the shore of oceans.
Again my thoughts are of you?
Only of you.
If the sea the sun and moon.
Could read my thoughts
They would follow me in awe
And the world would go dark.
As the oceans run dry.
Jude kyrie Oct 2015
I need to write
you a love poem.
Not with
chocolates and roses.
But with heated passions
and intensity.

So intense you
Will need to sit down
As you read it.
So strong it
burns with passions.
Causing your face to blush
In secret thoughts.
Thoughts that slow
the time to a crawl
Before you will
share your bed
with me
once more.

Words that tug
at your clothes
Like an ardent lover.
Words that will
leave us as naked
as newborns.
Burning in fires
That are as
old as time itself.

When you read it.
You will be standing
at the edge
of a pit of flame
so dangerous you will
hold me in an
embrace so hard
just to survive.
so that we do not
fall into its
raging inferno below.
Jude kyrie Oct 2015
The romantic ending to a love story I wrote

Jude Kyrie

He married me because
I was pregnant I am Sure.
Well double pregnant really
it was twins.
I never thought that he could love me
or that I could dare to love him.
It just felt the right thing to do.
But it changed when the twins arrived
I have never seen anyone as happy as him
well unless you count me in that is.
He was so good looking so gentle
What did he ever see in me?
I was always cheating and losing
on diets to keep myself a size fourteen.
My hair frizzy and wild.
But he made me feel beautiful.
How did he do that?
We went for a Sunday evening walk
It was fall in central park.
We walked the twins
in their double stroller.
The leaves had turned
red and amber
under the chilling winds
of late New York autumn.
The late fall sunlight
lit up the park in reds and golds
against the grey outlines of the old city.
A city that had seen many such love stories.
I see Michael holding the twins in his arms.
I could see the love he had for us all
in his beautiful eyes.
The same eyes that had
some major optical defect.
An aberration that
I had no understanding of.
Because he saw me as
beautiful and worthy of his love.
And in that single moment
There in central park on a red carpet
of rustling autumn leaves.
I felt him walk in into my heart
through a door I had always
left unlocked for only him.
As he entered inside me
to a place on this earth
that was destined for him alone.
I closed the door quietly behind him.
Locking it with the only key that existed.
Then throwing it into the urban woodlands
never to be found again.
Jude kyrie Mar 2016
It was out of the blue.
Really why would he talk to me.
I am pleasantly plump.
size fourteen if I lie.
my hair is wild
and terminal frizzy.
he has a cut glass
English accent.
like a BBC newscaster.
I am from the Bronx.
we drank too much wine.
he took me home to my place.
I had to pay for the cab.
But it's not like paying for him
to...well...you know.
I could not walk the next morning.
he told me I was Beautiful and
the best time he had had in America.
me can you believe that.
He was a botanist from the UK
working on the nesting habits
of the speckle throated warbler
or something.
All I knew was he had ice blue eyes
a sweet accent and grey specks
in his blueness that made me
want to undress for him.
He was beautiful.
when he left in the morning
I gave him my number
on his phone.
call me I said.
but months went by.
not a word.
then when the morning
sickness came.
I realised he was still inside me.

The eclampsia came at seven months
I was hospitalised the doctors told me
I and the baby could die.
I went into a coma.

when. woke up my belly was flat
the baby I cried.
I opened my eyes and he was there.
holding my hand.
my baby I wept
they are fine Kelly
he said.
they?
you had twins a boy and a girl.
I looked up into his eyes
with the grey fleck's.
Micheal how?
I was sent back to the UK
I lost my job at the university.
I tried to call you
but no answer.
I came back on a visitors visa.
your neighbor told
me you were here.

six months later

we went for a Sunday evening
stroll in central park
it was fall the trees
were red and amber
leaves of gold
russeled under our feet.
new York was grey in fading light.
A city that hadwitnessed
many such love stories.
I looked at Micheal
his beautiful eyes
that held some kind
of optical aberration.
For they saw me as
worthy of his love.
He lifted the twins
over his head.
they laughed in delight.
I never seen anyone
as happy as him.
Unless you
count me in that is.
He said I love my family Kelly.
I whispered I love you Micheal.
Then at that moment
in the urban forrest of Cental park
on a vermillian autumn evening.
I felt him walk into
the door in my heart
that I left opened or him.
As he entered
I closed it quickly
so he could never leave.
locking it with the only key
that existed.
Then throwing it into the brambled
undergrowth of the woodlands
never to found again.
Jude kyrie Sep 2015
Always my child.

The resteraunt was filled
with delicious odors of delight.
Our hunger multiplied
as the waiter delivered a basket
of fresh baked rolls and butter.
My daughter started eating it hungrily.
Don’t fill up on the bread honey
The portions are huge here.
She said Mom I can’t believe
you just said that.
I looked at her six months pregnant
already she had
a few grey hairs appearing.
What she did not know
When we walked
across a busy road
I had to stop myself from
Holding her hand
Jude kyrie May 2017
A Manchester Man by Jude Kyrie
(For a sadness beyond grief)

I am Manchester born and Manchester-bred.
I love my city and love my dead.
Its veins are titanium its blood molten steel
Heritage lives here in smokey days.
But we are all one family in every way.

Send us your cowards and misguided creeps.
We will drag their bodies in our cobbled streets.
In cowardly hiding, you **** our offspring
But in god's eyes, their souls will sing

As strong as the history in our brass bands.
We live in the heart of our god's safe hands
So try to quell us like others have tried
And look at the books and see how they died.

I am Manchester born and Manchester-bred.
I love my city and love my dead.


(rest sweetly my children)









Poem by William Blake
Bring me my bow of burning gold!
Bring me my arrows of desire!
Bring me my spear: o clouds unfold!
Bring me my chariots of fire!
I will not cease from mental fight;
Nor shall my sword sleep in my hand
Till we have built Jerusalem
In England’s green and pleasant land.
Jude kyrie May 2017
A Manchester Man by Jude Kyrie
(For a sadness beyond grief)

I am Manchester born and Manchester-bred.
I love my city and love my dead.
Its veins are titanium its blood molten steel
Heritage lives here in smokey days.
But we are all one family in every way.

Send us your cowards and misguided creeps.
We will drag their bodies in our cobbled streets.
In cowardly hiding, you **** our offspring
But in god's eyes, their souls will sing

As strong as the history in our brass bands.
We live in the heart of our god's safe hands
So try to quell us like others have tried
And look at the books and see how they died.

I am Manchester born and Manchester-bred.
I love my city and love my dead.


(rest sweetly my children)









Poem by William Blake
Bring me my bow of burning gold!
Bring me my arrows of desire!
Bring me my spear: o clouds unfold!
Bring me my chariots of fire!
I will not cease from mental fight;
Nor shall my sword sleep in my hand
Till we have built Jerusalem
In England’s green and pleasant land.
Jude kyrie May 2017
A Manchester Man by Jude Kyrie
(For a sadness beyond grief)

I am Manchester born and Manchester-bred.
I love my city and love my dead.
Its veins are titanium its blood molten steel
Heritage lives here in smokey days.
But we are all one family in every way.

Send us your cowards and misguided creeps.
We will drag their bodies in our cobbled streets.
In cowardly hiding, you **** our offspring
But in god's eyes, their souls will sing

As strong as the history in our brass bands.
We live in the heart of our god's safe hands
So try to quell us like others have tried
And look at the books and see how they died.

I am Manchester born and Manchester-bred.
I love my city and love my dead.


(rest sweetly my children)









Poem by William Blake
Bring me my bow of burning gold!
Bring me my arrows of desire!
Bring me my spear: o clouds unfold!
Bring me my chariots of fire!
I will not cease from mental fight;
Nor shall my sword sleep in my hand
Till we have built Jerusalem
In England’s green and pleasant land.
Jude kyrie May 2017
A Manchester Man by Jude Kyrie
(For a sadness beyond grief)

I am Manchester born and Manchester-bred.
I love my city and love my dead.
Its veins are titanium its blood molten steel
Heritage lives here in smokey days.
But we are all one family in every way.

Send us your cowards and misguided creeps.
We will drag their bodies in our cobbled streets.
In cowardly hiding, you **** our offspring
But in god's eyes, their souls will sing

As strong as the history in our brass bands.
We live in the heart of our god's safe hands
So try to quell us like others have tried
And look at the books and see how they died.

I am Manchester born and Manchester-bred.
I love my city and love my dead.


(rest sweetly my children)









Poem by William Blake
Bring me my bow of burning gold!
Bring me my arrows of desire!
Bring me my spear: o clouds unfold!
Bring me my chariots of fire!
I will not cease from mental fight;
Nor shall my sword sleep in my hand
Till we have built Jerusalem
In England’s green and pleasant land.
Jude kyrie May 2017
A Manchester Man by Jude Kyrie
(For a sadness beyond grief)

I am Manchester born and Manchester-bred.
I love my city and love my dead.
Its veins are titanium its blood molten steel
Heritage lives here in smokey days.
But we are all one family in every way.

Send us your cowards and misguided creeps.
We will drag their bodies in our cobbled streets.
In cowardly hiding, you **** our offspring
But in god's eyes, their souls will sing

As strong as the history in our brass bands.
We live in the heart of our god's safe hands
So try to quell us like others have tried
And look at the books and see how they died.

I am Manchester born and Manchester-bred.
I love my city and love my dead.


(rest sweetly my children)









Poem by William Blake
Bring me my bow of burning gold!
Bring me my arrows of desire!
Bring me my spear: o clouds unfold!
Bring me my chariots of fire!
I will not cease from mental fight;
Nor shall my sword sleep in my hand
Till we have built Jerusalem
In England’s green and pleasant land.
Jude kyrie May 2017
A Manchester Man by Jude Kyrie
(For a sadness beyond grief)

I am Manchester born and Manchester-bred.
I love my city and love my dead.
Its veins are titanium its blood molten steel
Heritage lives here in smokey days.
But we are all one family in every way.

Send us your cowards and misguided creeps.
We will drag their bodies in our cobbled streets.
In cowardly hiding, you **** our offspring
But in god's eyes, their souls will sing

As strong as the history in our brass bands.
We live in the heart of our god's safe hands
So try to quell us like others have tried
And look at the books and see how they died.

I am Manchester born and Manchester-bred.
I love my city and love my dead.


(rest sweetly my children)









Poem by William Blake
Bring me my bow of burning gold!
Bring me my arrows of desire!
Bring me my spear: o clouds unfold!
Bring me my chariots of fire!
I will not cease from mental fight;
Nor shall my sword sleep in my hand
Till we have built Jerusalem
In England’s green and pleasant land.
Jude kyrie May 2017
A Manchester Man by Jude Kyrie
(For a sadness beyond grief)

I am Manchester born and Manchester-bred.
I love my city and love my dead.
Its veins are titanium its blood molten steel
Heritage lives here in smokey days.
But we are all one family in every way.

Send us your cowards and misguided creeps.
We will drag their bodies in our cobbled streets.
In cowardly hiding, you **** our offspring
But in god's eyes, their souls will sing

As strong as the history in our brass bands.
We live in the heart of our god's safe hands
So try to quell us like others have tried
And look at the books and see how they died.

I am Manchester born and Manchester-bred.
I love my city and love my dead.


(rest sweetly my children)









Poem by William Blake
Bring me my bow of burning gold!
Bring me my arrows of desire!
Bring me my spear: o clouds unfold!
Bring me my chariots of fire!
I will not cease from mental fight;
Nor shall my sword sleep in my hand
Till we have built Jerusalem
In England’s green and pleasant land.
Jude kyrie May 2017
A Manchester Man by Jude Kyrie
(For a sadness beyond grief)

I am Manchester born and Manchester-bred.
I love my city and love my dead.
Its veins are titanium its blood molten steel
Heritage lives here in smokey days.
But we are all one family in every way.

Send us your cowards and misguided creeps.
We will drag their bodies in our cobbled streets.
In cowardly hiding, you **** our offspring
But in god's eyes, their souls will sing

As strong as the history in our brass bands.
We live in the heart of our god's safe hands
So try to quell us like others have tried
And look at the books and see how they died.

I am Manchester born and Manchester-bred.
I love my city and love my dead.


(rest sweetly my children)









Poem by William Blake
Bring me my bow of burning gold!
Bring me my arrows of desire!
Bring me my spear: o clouds unfold!
Bring me my chariots of fire!
I will not cease from mental fight;
Nor shall my sword sleep in my hand
Till we have built Jerusalem
In England’s green and pleasant land.
Jude kyrie Aug 2015
We are in the
midst of a love Storm.
A cold front has passed by
leaving blazing hot
marital weather.
your fingers like
hot irons on my skin.
Somewhere in the house
the teeth of the piano
tap out love songs.
we open to each other
like windows
on a warm spring day.
Separating into two halves
like oyster shells
yet still hinged together.
Clothes slip onto the floor
from the foot of our bed.
closing my eyes
I hear soft summer rain,
a trilling of songbirds
on the open window sill.
Insects chirping an atia
in the blooming gardens.
All in homage
to our house
our home
when everything
is allowed.
and joy
sings the loudest.
Jude kyrie Mar 2016
A million soft words
existing inside us
hey never spoken or heard.
thier weight attaches to us
like great burdens
keeping us tied to the earth
when our hearts
need to be soaring on the thermals
of the Moon and stars.
A million loving words
unable to escape.
to Convey our love.
the love of eternity's.
never spoken never heard
never needed for
your smile became a glow
in your blue eyes
and then a kiss
from your red lips.
akiss worth a million words.
to any lovers.
Jude kyrie Aug 2018
She turned to me and whispers
I love you so much
so very much,

I can hear the cry
of eagles on the mountain
The tinkling laughter of water.
Cascading over stones in the stream.

When I look at you my love
There is only light
nothing is dark
in this universe.
She said.

I looked into her beautiful eyes.
So much what I wanted
so much what I needed
So stunningly beautiful.

And there on a clear summer's day
underneath the timeless mountain of love.
I entered her heart through
The door she had left open
for me
only for me.

And I found my home.
Where I would  live forever,
Ahh ROMANCE
jude
Jude kyrie Dec 2015
Christmas 1914 France

The trenches were quiet that night
An occasional report from a snipers rifle
No barrage of cannon fire or gas
The life was hell wet and dark
Living in trenches in what had been
a farmer’s field
It was Christmas Eve
At Midnight a a silent winter moon
Then in the frost and snow a single voice
Singing in its native German
That loveliest of carols oh Holy Night
The beautiful old song of Christmas praise
Drifted over the no man’s land
between the trenches
The British soldiers listened in respectful silence.
When the carol; was finished
A young British soldier stood up in the trench
and sang Silent Night in his native English.
All over this place e of madness and death
a common strand of sanity filled their hearts.
In silence some soldiers walked out of the trenches
Into no man’s land the Germans did the same
No weapons they were just ordinary men
Shaking hands exchanging gifts
of cigarettes and chocolate.
Showing each other pictures of wives and children
A makeshift soccer field was made
And some young men played a game
At the end of the day they returned
Christmas was over
The madness resumed
this is a recorded true event not fiction it happened.101 years later
maybe Christmas can bring its peace to us once more.
jude
Jude kyrie Nov 2015
Roses are sometimes Red
Violets are definitely NOT Blue
And if you could see you way
I would love to get you into bed.
Not Sure
Honesty is Best Policy Mom
Not getting any Takers
LOL
Jude
Jude kyrie Sep 2016
I offered you
a mountain of forevers.
But all you wanted
was this moment
Jude kyrie Feb 2017
Agnostic's prayer
By
Jude Kyrie

Let there be orchards
In summer ripe days

Let there be Christmas
And first of Mays

Let there be children singing
In heavenly choirs.

Let there be snowfall
With warm cozy fires

Let there be hopscotch
And childish games

Let there be holidays
With different names

Let there be family
With comforting beds

Let there be mother's
To kiss children's heads

Let there be peaceful
long summer nights

Let there be moonlight
So clear and so bright

Let there be dark skies
With a billion bright stars

Let there be love
As each new day starts.

To be read aloud
To any God you believe in
Jude
Keep getting inspired by your wonderful work
Regards
Jude
Jude kyrie Oct 2016
You don't need religion
To understand sin.
It lives you can feel it
Gnawing inside of you.
Eating all the goodness that
you want to last forever.

I sit on the porch of my
house in the city.
Stars glint like lights
from a mirror ball
I see them walking by
Lost abandoned mothers
children lost  tired t and hungry.

They are the reasons I lock my doors.
And click my security codes.
But I wonder sometimes.
Those locks,
those codes.
Those bars
on the windows.

Are they keeping
my sin locked in?
or stopping my
goodness and grace
from leaving
and walking the
needy streets at night.
Jude kyrie Jul 2018
And the band played waltzing Matilda
by
jude kyrie

First of all y ou have to know me.
I am not wild or adventurous girl.
I read, and go to small get togethers.
so grounded so conservative.
A girl from new New England.
A schoolteacher I get lost
in the shadows at parties.

I was nothing  like him at all
Not like the tall strong rugby playing
adventure seeking Aussie man
with the wild Aussie accent.

We met when he visited Boston
I am on walkabouts
he said to me in the book store.
I asked him if he Did not have a car.
He laughed
No darlin I mean I am travelling
The world I got restless in OZ
and they call it walkabout.

He took me for coffee
I had never seen such a big
Beautiful man as he.
Every other word
Was right mate
or no worries love..
But for some reason that
I shall never understand.
He liked me

and he would not take no
for an answer.
I felt like a little girl in his arms.
He could pick me up like a feather
Lifting me over his head
Your a bit of alright Darlin.
.he would say.
Or ****** love
you are a *******..
Whatever that meant

I got used to him being around.
He made me laugh.
He always cheered me up
Why I married
him I will never know.

I worried about his giant
frame towering over me..
But. I should not have.
He was the sweetest kindest man
I have ever known.
He treated me like gold.
Always, So gentle so loving.
He made me so happy.

I know he missed his Australian home.
But he never complained.
He said I love you Darlin.
We will get back home one day.
I don't think I have ever been as happy
as that time with him.

I thought giants lived forever.
But they don't.
They are just as frail
as us small people.
When he became sick.
He made little off it.

******,
I will shake it off in a fortnight.
No worries love.
Give us a kiss.
But I did worry.
...I knew ...I knew..I knew.

Finally at the end he said
I got a last request honey.
Honey ..his only American word.
I kissed him.
Anything Anything my love.

Spread my ashes on Australian soil
It don't matter much.where.
Just  Anywhere.
but have them sing
Waltzing Matilda for me love.
When I lost him
My world was not as bright.
But I kept my promise.
I took his ashes back to OZ.

There was a huge
Australian football match
With half of  Sydney there.
As a hundred thousand people
singing his beloved
Waltzing Matilda.
At the football match.

I Let his ashes loose and free
into a cool breeze that seemed
To know he was back home.
He flew away far into
the wide open Australian sky.
Where I knew he was happiest.

And I whispered
Goodbye my sweet
Australian gentle giant.

And the band
Were playing waltzing matilda.
Ahh romance
Jude kyrie Nov 2015
The neighbors party is kind of boring
Banal chit chat everywhere.
The price of houses and baked beans.
Then all changes in a single moment.
I feel her standing next to me.
That perfume her laugh I turn to face her.
Stunning and sweet as she always was.
Her smile cuts my heart open
like a knife.
I tried to get over her but.
I knew ..I knew.
Hi how are you she whispers.
I hope she cannot tell I am lying.
As I tell her I am fine and make up
some recent accomplishments.
They are just defensive untruths.
My mind is on her figure
Her lips her hair.
The last time we made love.
I might as well be speaking
In a foreign language.
Words falling like snowflakes
Randomly In the wind.
I ask her how she has been
She frowns lightly.
There’s a hole in my life she said.
I fill up our glasses with wine.
Hope raising in my heart
like the wine filling my glass.
She tells a few happy stories.
It’s weekend and a party
happy is a prerequisite.
We drink the wine quickly
To fill our inner emptiness.
And suddenly its midnight
I hold her coat for her she slips
her arms into the sleeves.
Like we have done a thousand
times before.
I spin her to me we kiss passionately.
I remember her and the hurt
That is  frozen around my heart melts.
She comes back to my flat
We make love the trapped
tears fall inside my eyes.
Then the warmth of her
floods my soul I am bipolar now.
Feeling over the moon.
Swimming in a massive high.
I should have stayed on an
emotional carousel not jumped
onto the roller coaster.
I can’t hold it back
then I go spoil it all.
“I love you honey”
“So much
Please come back to me.”
She stiffened slightly in my arms.
The moment was lost.
“We will see she whispers.”
The house is silent when I awaken
to the soft click of my door closing.
Her side of my bed is still warm.
I know my half healed heart
will reopen the cuts she left before.
And I would bleed
like I did when she first left me.
Jude kyrie Sep 2019
Threre is a time for paris
It is not today with its updated tempo.
It is when life was new
Full of first
First freedoms
First kisses
First loves
There can never be another first love.

I sit here on this spring day
Just as i did so very many
Years ago.
The warm sunlight of the old city
Reflecta on the river seine
Just as it did back then
When I found her.

She saw me holding my easil
My pallette in my hand.
So young so innocent
Have you eaten she whispered
In he soft french accent.
As beautiful to my ears as the chiming of church bells

I suppose my thin build and gaunt face cried out starving artist.
No mam'selle i answered
Not for a while i must finish
My paintings to sell them.

She touched my hair way too long and overdue for a cut
She lifted it from my face
You are so beautiful she purred
As my heart fell into her hands

She took me back to her flat
A small place over a cafe in montmartre.
I ate bread and cheese and coffee.
And fell asleep
When i awoke she kissed me
Come to me she said I will take care of ypu.
I finished my first six paintings and in between painted her portrait .
I think it is the best work I had ever done
Before or since.
Americans came to buy my art and wanted to buy her portrait i refused to sell it.
It is part of me i explained
It contains the best of my heart.
At night she would sing at the cafe and collected tips from the patrons
But she would not sing la vie en rose until i came down to to rest from my artwork.

It is my gift to my lover she explained to the tourist who requested it of her.  .

Then she would touch my hair
And sing the old french ballad
I fell in love with her so hard
So very hard.
When our daughter was born
I think I was the happiest man alive.
Michelle meet your papa she sang.
It waa four years later the sickness came.
She smiled and said she would be just fine in a week or two.
But i knew…..i knew.

Forty years later
I sit as I do each year on this day in the springtime at the spot where we met.

My lovely daughter Michelle
Comes to pick me up with her daughter my grandaughter
Named Annie just like my love.
Dad she said come on home
Its chilly here by the river.

My grandaughter ask of me
For the thousandth time
Grandpere why did you never remarry even after all those years.
I tpuch her pretty face so full of first times to come.

I Smile and say
Because you only get one first love nothing else can compare ma petite.

Back at my flat over the old cafe her portrait hangs over the fireplace.
And down below among the tourist in the cafe
A beautiful voice is singing
La vie en rose
And I know it is for me.
Ahhh i get so emotional
When i hear
La vie en rose
And i just played it
So i wrote this
Jude
Jude kyrie Mar 2016
Maybe a nearby star will
supernova
and build a giant black hole.
so powerful
the sun and moon will be swallowed
into its depths.
so fast the earth will disappear
in lightening speed.
perhaps then
I would think of you
for the last time.
Jude kyrie Jan 2016
New York rainbow

*As a little girl he sat next to me at school.
I always liked him,  no, much more than that.
Later we walked home together.
He would carry my books.
At graduation he was my date.
We even went to college together.
We broke the chains of friendship and he became my lover.
My first and only love.
We married young it was no surprise
to our parents they were expecting it.
Before I knew it we had three kids, two girls and a boy.
Our son looks just like him.
It was just like any other day.
He came home from work.
Cooked burgers on the barbeque.
We got the kids to bed.
drank a glass of wine then went to bed at ten.
He wanted to make love but I was exhausted.
The kids had been terrors all day.
The next day he kissed me goodbye with a see you later honey.
I got a call from my friend she said put on the TV.
I saw the towers fall turning to ashes.
Like my life did that moment.
All I could think was I wish I had made love to him last night.

September 11 2015

The children are all grown up now
He would be so proud of them.
I look at my strong handsome son.
He looks like him exactly
We stand at ground zero and say a prayer.
I whisper it was always you honey.
Only you.
As if by magic he answered me
A giant beautiful rainbow
circled over New York
and I know it was for me.
jude writing as a woman's point of view of 9/11
the big moments the world sees for a few minutes
the small moments live forever in one person's heart.
jude
Jude kyrie Aug 2016
They sent Michael back to England.
His work visa had expired.
I thought that was
going to be the last I saw of him.
He was way too handsome
for sloughy old me anyway.
I had started to put weight on again.
My *** deciding it was not already big enough.
But my friend Annie said you look really good Kelly.
Your skin is clear and your glowing.

The morning sickness was a clue.
My doctor said three months in honey.
Your having a baby.
The later months were awful I got very sick.
It’s preeclampsia the doctor said.
I was bed rested for three months.
Still no word from Micheal.
I guess he had some English rose in the UK.
Drinking tea in a rose garden or something.
Then the attack came
I went into a coma.
It was three weeks later I awoke.
Someone was holding my hand.
It was Micheal.

I smiled weakly ..the baby I asked?
Fine Kelly they are both fine.
But you
I got a tempory visa last week
But we have to be married in two weeks
Or its back to old blighty for me.

He married me because
I was pregnant I am Sure.
Well double pregnant really
it was twins.
I never thought that he could love me
or that I could dare to love him.
It just felt the right thing to do.

But it changed when the twins arrived
I have never seen anyone as happy as him
well unless you count me in that is.
He was so good looking so gentle
What did he ever see in me?
I was always cheating and losing
on diets to keep myself a size fourteen.
My hair frizzy and wild.
But he made me feel beautiful.
How did he do that?

We went for a Sunday evening walk
It was beautiful fall in central park.
We walked the twins
in their double stroller.
The leaves had turned
to red and amber
under the chilling winds
of late New York autumn.

The late fall sunlight
lit up the park in reds and golds
against the grey outlines of the old city.
A city that had seen many such love stories.
I see Michael holding the twins in his arms.
I could see the love he had for us all
in his beautiful eyes.
The same eyes that had
some major optical defect.
An aberration that
I had no understanding of.
Because he saw me as
beautiful and worthy of his love.

And in that single moment
There in central park on a red carpet
of rustling autumn leaves.
I felt him walk in into my heart
through a door I had always
left unlocked for only him.

As he entered inside me
to a place on this earth
that was destined for him alone.
I closed the door quietly behind him.
Locking it with the only key that existed.
Then throwing it far into the urban woodlands
never to be found again.
Don't you love happy endings
I do
lol
Jude
Jude kyrie Nov 2015
She found him outside her small flat
he was in the bloom of the old lamplight.
she noticed the grey flecks in his beautiful eyes.
Hi!
he whispered softly like honey falling from a spoon.
She flashed her prettiest smile
And tossed her hair back like she used to.
You look as beautiful as I remember.
She looked at him for some small signal of remorse
but she could not see it.
He wanted her
she felt his need even in the cold night air.
There’s a hole in my existence he said.
His mouth almost smiling.
The smile that had her undress
for him a thousand times.
Why me?
I was never enough before she retorted.
Wanting to hurt him as badly as he had hurt her.
I did not know I loved you
until you were not there he said.
A sadness glowed in his eyes.
And if you remember
it was you that left me.
Why did you leave? He asked
Because you never asked me to stay
she said quietly.
I am asking now he  answered.
She let him into her flat
They undressed and made love.
When she awoke she heard
the click of her door as he left her.
She knew her heart would ache
Just as it had before.
And she knew he would be back again.
And she would let him in once more.
Jude kyrie Jan 2016
An excerpt from a love story I am too lazy to write

She found him outside her small flat
he was in the bloom of the old lamplight.
she noticed the grey flecks in his beautiful eyes.
Hi!
he whispered
softly like honey falling from a spoon.
She flashed her prettiest smile
And tossed her hair back like she used to.
You look as beautiful as I remember.
She looked at him for some small signal of remorse
but she could not see it.
He wanted her
she felt his need even in the cold night air.
There’s a hole in my existence he said.
His mouth almost smiling.
The smile that had her undress
for him a thousand times.
Why me?
I was never enough before she retorted.
Wanting to hurt him as badly as he had hurt her.
I did not know I loved you
until you were not there he said.
A sadness glowed in his eyes.
And if you remember
it was you that left me.
Why did you leave? He asked
Because you never asked me to stay
she said quietly.
I am asking now he answered.
She let him into her flat
They undressed and made love.
When she awoke she heard
the click of her door as he left her.
She knew her heart would ache
Just as it had before.
And she knew he would be back again.
And she would let him in once more
Jude kyrie Sep 2018
On gossamer wings
There flies a dream
Of you and beauty
And wedding rings

In soprano voices
my happy heart sings
Of you and beauty
and wedding rings

In children's laughter
And the joy it brings
Of you and beauty
And our wedding rings
For you
My love
your Jude
forever
Jude kyrie Jun 2016
An intimate moment
By
Jude Kyrie

He looked up into the night sky.
Reflections of moon and stars
filled his beautiful eyes like mirrors..
For just a brief moment
a clouded expression
took over his strong features.
Perhaps he is worried she thought.
Or maybe he did not love her
quiet as she loved him.
She placed her wine glass
onto the porch railing.
And whispered
Are you alright my love.?
Can I help.?
He sighed slightly
she almost heard
his breath leave his body.
Yes I am fine he answered.
Hiding his pain from her
As he always did.
She ached to hold him
close to her breast.
Where the softness
And the steady beat
of her heart would
comfort him.
She stood next to him
Wishing to taste the
comfort if his lips.
She slipped her hand
about his waist.
Just for a moment
they saw the moon and stars.
In each others eyes.
And he twisted a strand
Of her hair about a finger.
She tilted her head back
Offering him everything.
He kissed her softly
And as he always did
he took her to her bed.
And she made love to him.
As usual
He took her
Without saying I love you.
But the moon and stars
Blocked her vision.
He's so caring
He gives himself
to me all the time
She thought.
Jude kyrie Aug 2015
The remnants of the smoke rings
from a thousand ciggattes.
Fills my mind with memories
that the heart just cant forget.

I know that lifes a journey.
Its the only one we get.
But when I dance
amoung my memories
its always you Annette.

I fell in love the instant
of the first time that we met.
We were both married to another
but it was always you Annette

We could have spent a life together
but that's a chance we did not get.
I had a life of stolen moments
with you my sweet Annette.

I look up from the table
its you there sweet Annette
Even after forever
I love you my  Annette.

My heart is full of shadows
and I am aching with regret.
You say Harry are you crying?
your eyes are red and wet.

I smile and whisper softly.
im alright my sweet Annette.
It's just the smoke that's rising
from my forgotten cigarette.
Jude kyrie Jan 2016
Annette

A Poem
By
Jude Kyrie


*The remnants of the smoke rings
from a thousand cigarettes.
Fill my mind with memories
that my heart just cant forget.

I know that life’s a journey.
Its the only one we get.
But when I dance among
old memories
its always you Annette.

I fell in love the instant
of the first time that we met.
We were both married to another
but it was always you Annette.

We could have spent a life together
but that's a chance we did not get.
I had a life of stolen moments
with you my sweet Annette.

I look up from the table
you are stood there sweet Annette
Even after forever I love you
with a love I can’t forget.

My heart is full of shadows
and I am aching with regret.
You say Harry are you crying?
your eyes are red and wet.

I smile and whisper softly.
I’m alright my sweet Annette.
It's just the smoke rings rising
from my forgotten cigarette.
Jude kyrie Sep 2015
Annette

*The remnants of the smoke rings
from a thousand cigarettes.
Fills my mind with memories
of you my sweet Annette.

I know that life’s a journey.
It’s the only one we get.
But when I dance
among my memories
its always you I see Annette

I fell in love the instant
of the first time that we met.
We were both married to another
but it was always you Annette.

We could have spent a life together
but that's a chance we did not get.
I had a life of stolen moments
with you my  sweet Annette

My heart is full of shadows
and I am aching with regret.
You say sweetie are you crying?
Your eyes are red and wet.

I smile and whisper softly.
I’m alright my love Annette
It's just the smoke that's rising
from my forgotten cigarette.
Jude kyrie Nov 2015
England 1892.

The Orphan boy.
The Orphan Boy

The little boy lay sleeping homeless in the park.
So cold and he did shiver so frightened in the dark.
No mother or father to tuck him into bed
No pillow full of feathers to rest his weary head

The faery Queen looked down upon him a tear fell from her eye.
The winter winds will end him he surely will just die
She commanded her best faeries go to the little boy
Go bring him to our island to be happy filled with joy

Bring him to the faerie place to run free and run wild
Where happiness will fill him go bring the human child
Guide him here in safety fly here hand in hand
From his world so filled with sadness
With more tears than he can stand

The cold was biting through him he was near his very last
As the faery throng came to him his troubles were near passed
A thousand faery hands took him like a feather to the sky
To warm him by the suns light as to the magic land they fly

No more to feel the hunger and pain of being alone
The magic kingdom he lived in was a wonderful new home
He had fairies for sisters and the faery queen became his Mom
He was her little boy her one and only human son

The faery throng all sang to him a lovely faery song
"We brought him to our island to live with our faery thong.
To live within the magic faery land to run free and run wild
Where happiness now fills him our only human child
Never to be alone again and always hold a faery hand
From his world so filled with sadness
With more tears than he can stand."
written for my grandchildren
Jude
Jude kyrie Nov 2015
He is so beautiful how could he
possibly love me?
My eyes too wide my *** too big
My size fourteen struggling
to maintain itself.
I am sure he married me
because I was pregnant.
Perhaps it was the right
thing to do.
And he always
does the right thing.
But when the twins came
I have never seen anyone
As happy as him.
Well unless you count me in.
We took the twins for a walk
Into central park.
It was late autumn.
The world was red and amber.
The leaves crackled under our feet.
In the grey skyline
the old city looked down
at us.
It had seen many such
Unlikely love stories
over the years.
Michael picked up the twins
and kissed them
He held onto me
in a group hug.
He whispered
Oh Kelly I am so happy
so very happy.
Thank you for your love my angel.
And there in the autumn glow
of the falling leaves
He kissed me
And fell inside the door
I had left open for only him
Inside my heart.
As he entered inside
I closed the door quickly
Locking it with the only key
that existed.
Then throwing it away
Into the urban forest
of Central park
Never to be found again.
Jude kyrie Aug 2015
Time goes by slowly without you.
Our house quiet and full of echoes.
My existence now a sock
with a large hole.
It will take me a long time
to **** this one.

In your den I have moved
most of your things into boxes.
Except for your beloved pipe
it still carries its aromatic odors.

I have kept your favorite old sweater.
In the dark it sleeps by my head.
Bringing your familiar scent once more.
Reaching for you like always.

I call our phone again and again.
To hear the timbre of your voice.
Breathing in every nuance of each syllable.
Disturbing your new ghostly life.

It has more meaning than odors.
Or letters with faded photographs.
For a returning fleeting moment
you and I are together once again.

You ask me to leave a message.
I whisper I miss you honey.
Jude kyrie Nov 2015
The silence is deafening.
You are just getting settled
In your new ghostly home.
But it is the first day of winter
and I cannot remember a winter
without you.
So I talk to your empty chair.
Your book and glasses on the table.
Even the pipe you loved
and I hated is not removed.
I breathe its aromatic perfumed
tobacco like I did before.
You never told me how sick you were
But  I knew…I knew.
Now wearing your old sweater
I call our number again and again
The machine resurrects your voice.
I savor every nuance and inflexion
the soft gentle timbre I loved.
For a brief moment you are back here
with me once more.
You ask me to leave a message.
It beeps.
I whisper
I miss you honey
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