At night I have always wondered,
“What if the sun exploded at night?”
Would we miss it
when expecting morning’s clean sunshine?

Or is it a gift to the lovers
who own passionate squalor at two,

To see the explosion happen behind,
then reflected off the moon

The night tonight has been
as warm as summer’s light.
Condemns the older couple
lying on opposite sides
Love as hot as ever, yet colder than our future.
And blinded by the darkness
that eternity resides.

With pondering heart I wondered...
What if the sun exploded at night.
Would it be missed?
inside highways of clouds that released tears.

Would it be missed,
as lovers reached for a morning embrace
without sight?

In quiet of night the Moon spoke
in rhythms with the wind.
“worry not dear one,
for moon and sun have a marriage
made in heaven.
Our love covers one another
as if boats passing in the night.
my protective arms of rays reaches for Sun
and sun does for me the same.
So all is well
All is well."

With that heard I drifted asleep,
no worries felt.
Peaceful under rays of moons love.

I quit
I quit this mediocrity called Life
This existence filled with paradoxes
This life which lacks any form of happiness
These days that are filled with suffering

I quit
I quit this depression that eats me
This sadness that has long plagued me
This hatred that drives my every day
This angst that hovers over my head

I quit
I quit this stupid blaming game
Where I never took an ounce of responsibility
Where I hide behind flawed reasoning
Where I let my flowery tongue do my ***** work

I quit
I quit this pursuit of temporary happiness
Where I let Chance give or take control of me
Where I blindly wait for fruitless promises
Where I let this unfair Life give me anxieties

I QUIT
I QUIT THIS STUPID GAME
I QUIT FROM EVERYTHING THAT CONTROLS ME
From now on I am master of my fate
I am the captain of my ship
I alone pursue what I want
and not let anything come by chance
I will take responsibility for my actions
and take all the blame for my iniquities
I will not let anxiety take hold of me
and free my mind from all negativity
I will give up the pursuit of false joy
and in exchange pursue true wisdom
That this life is not as complicated
as what I thought it was.
That this life is just a simple struggle
and will only yield to those who are strong
Strong in mind and heart
Those willing to recognize and accept all weaknesses
and to change and convert them to strength

Whoever sits upon Heaven's Throne
Give me the courage to resign from this "Life"
and give me the strength and will
To start the change that I always wanted in me