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Dec 2017 Dave Cortel

why

Dec 2017 Dave Cortel

jas

why

why would you leave us
why would you leave me
i'm all alone now
feelings are creeping
crying on my knees
i beg to god , please
get me thru this
get me a fix
get me something to get over
one last kiss

guess you never cared
my heart you can't repair
no , not anymore
not when my chest hit the floor
left me helpless
when you walked out the door

& i don't understand how life worked out
i never gave a doubt
about us
about love
about our trust
why couldn't i realize you didn't give a ****

so now i'm stuck
i'm on my own
a new milestone
don't call me anymore
i won't pick up the phone
if you wanted to leave then stay gone

gone with the wind
gone till the end
gone from my life
something you can't mend
something you can't fix
or even comprehend
we were never more then friends

i should've known
i shoulda seen the signs
that our love died
& so i cry
while i write these lines
remembering all the good times
everything that you left behind

was me.

Dec 2017 Dave Cortel

12.21.17

Dec 2017 Dave Cortel

a

12.21.17

the blood
it starts to trickle
but i don't care
not anymore
in fact
i ache for it
i ache for the pain
i ache for that little bit of feeling
it is no longer self harm

Dec 2017 Dave Cortel

Dear Anna

Dec 2017 Dave Cortel

Franck Aleksander

Dear Anna

You're  beautiful, To me,
my hope in the morning light and dream in the dusk of night
The sight of you opens more doors in my life than even the greatest of writings
Your beautiful eyes make me shed more tears than the Grimmest funeral
I see no earth, no creation without you in it.
Importance opens my eyes, as I do not have love for people, I cannot see a world where I must live without you.
Your auburn locks shine through  my very soul, the sunlight gives your face a heavenly glow, so radiant that only a fool wouldn't fall for you,
My Angel, forgive me my carelessness but I feel only love for you and I don't believe that any words could  ever describe your  beauty and divinity but tried I have to explain the  extent  of  my feelings for
you as I sit here and think, I hope to  see  you  again and open my heart to you  personally
Like I always desired in the first place.

My first ever love letter, dedicated to that heavenly girl for whom my love knows no bounds.

#love #dreaming #happiness #divinity #religion

Dec 2017 Dave Cortel

Kaley

Dec 2017 Dave Cortel

Amber Jacobs

Kaley

They told me I’d never make it
That I would fall without being thrown
A child just shy of seventeen
With a baby of her own

It was then when I looked at you
And held you in my arm
That you were what changed me
And I would always keep you from harm

Hell! It was never easy
The hell I had to go through
But I let my instincts take over
To do the best I could for you

I gave up so much
And sacrificed because your love
Someone you would look up to
Someone you would be proud of

Im sorry for any pain
That I’ve ever caused along the way
In the destruction I caused
To raise you to this day

You are perfect!
You make it worth all the pain
Im proud of everything you have done
And everything you will gain

Dec 2017 Dave Cortel

A Sonnet For Self Preservation

Dec 2017 Dave Cortel

Caidyn

A Sonnet For Self Preservation

Once a lover said to me “I’d like to pick your brain,”
“You’re a beauty darling, but I think you’re quite insane.”
I did not doubt a word he said so I opened up my mind
I think he got a little scared when he realized what he’d find.
Empty bourbon bottles, littered in my head
Crumpled up old ***** notes, wishing I was dead.
Then one of the voices that once belonged only to me
Snuck into his consciousness out of curiosity
It whispered scary sayings right into his ear
He clutched my hand tightly, said “Never leave me, dear.”
I looked into terrified eyes with sincere empathy
But felt nothing but relief that the terror had left me.
Before it could crawl back to me I shut my mind quickly,
I will be ****** if I’m the one living life sickly.

A failed attempt at iambic pentameter, but a success for a sonnet I suppose. This is the first poem I ever performed publicly. It was written in April 2017.

#sonnet #self #love #abuse #depression #addiction #fear #alcoholism #suicide

Dec 2017 Dave Cortel

Ennui

Dec 2017 Dave Cortel

Sunshine Odhner

Ennui

So many qualms
about so many tasks
that none of them would satisfy,
and ambitions,
in their vacuousness: begone!

So fatalism is cruel,
and you are what you think.
But about Waste and Want:
what can be done ?
I don't know...
I don't know!

. . . I don't know, probably medication.

Dec 2017 Dave Cortel

And I Am Me

Dec 2017 Dave Cortel

Kat

And I Am Me

She's a beauty on stage,
A light at sea,
Forever she'll shine,
And I am me.

He's a greek god,
The perfect dream,
He'll defy all the odds,
And I am me.

She's the song of Dawn,
A gentle breeze,
A sweet summer love,
And I am me.

He's the flame behind the eyes,
His heart blissful and serene,
He's a gorgeous lie,
And I am me.

I'm the call of the wild,
Destruction and defeat,
Endlessly I'll wander
And this is me.

#rhyme #anxiety #society #beauty #comparison