Little Kelly doesn't feel
like going to school today
and when mom and dad
are out early to work
Kelly calls the school office -
she knows the "pro-see-dears"

"Hello," says Little Kelly into the phone
"Please note Kelly Blunder is sick;
she will not come to school today"

"Oh, sure,"  says the polite Ms Swift
of the school office
"I will take note of that...
And who is that, please?"

"Oh," comes Kelly's swift reply
*"This is my mother"

Drink
After drink
After drink
He gave more without asking
I wasn't paying so what did I care

Drink
After drink
After drink
He took me home
To his home that is

Tried
Dizzy
Numb
I could feel it
It hit

Lay down just for a little bit
Ten minutes
Twenty minutes
How did I end up in his bed?

I want to sleep
I'm safe I know him
Silent without a peep
He likes me I know it
I can trust him I've known him for years
It was only a few beers

Stop
It's not what I want
Different I was wrong
You were worse than him

I no longer feel safe
I can't move
Too many drinks
I don't want this

We were suppose to be something
Move slow
You were my friend
My dignity was at the end

You took it from me
My thoughts won't let me be
I know I should blame you
But I was dumb enough to think what we had was true

worms live from the decay of dead bodies
they are beautiful and soft,
and anyone could break one
but why would they want to when
their bodies seem as sunlight against glass?

you do not know that they want to get inside of you,
take from you,
and add your remains to their
empire of dirt. their soil, their sustenance.

he found his way into my soul,
he wants me to give all my insides away
to make him more beautiful.

worms think they are ugly
they have to fill themselves up up up
of other people, until everyone else is empty
and ugly too.

i am so sad
i want to die, want
to open up my wrists and show him my veins
because they look like worms

like him,
and i need them
but never wanted them.

I can hang my research paper
about mini gardening on my
refrigerator and hope that you
read it as you're
grabbing yourself a beer
and notice how thoughtful I am

and I can leave my type writer
next to my paint brushes, where
the tv used to sit in my living room
and hope that you will sit
on my couch and wonder
if I write about you
or if I paint pictures
of how flowers look
right after it rains

and I could hang posters of
Joe Strummer
& Charles Darwin
all over my bedroom walls
so that when
you climb into my bed you
think I'm interesting and smart

and I can compose 500 word texts
about how green your eyes are
then never send them

but that's more work than
I have the energy for this year
so I just won't bother loving you

I always told myself I wanted to fall in love
That the heartbreak would be worth it
It wasn't.
I wish I could've stayed naive
Still believe in true love and a fatal attraction
But I don't
He pushed me over the edge
One more time and I would become that heartless ***** everyone knew was somewhere inside of me
The kindhearted girl everyone once knew is gone
Being told too many times she was easy to control and walk all over she now believes it
Meaningless *** is more appealing and comes easy with the numbness
Because love does not exist and that fatal attraction is just lust you feel

I was dumb
Now I am numb
Dumb enough to let you in
Numb because I can no longer find a reason to grin
I no longer take blame
For what you did to me I hope you live a life of shame
Everything you said was a lie
I will hate myself for believing 'till the day I die
Closure is something every girl needs
Instead you left me to bleed
Bleed out until there is nothing left of me
You got a new girl soon to be
Let me go until there is no more blood
My emotions will no longer flood
Lifeless I'll be
Lifeless I am