A cruel conviction of lavished emotions gains recognition in me
You awaken it by the words you use to charm my spirit
You channel feelings from deep with in so much so that I have to search for myself in you.
You're old and I'm young,we both have dreams
But you're so good with your words, I can tell you've done this before
And I fall carelessly for you,thinking that you're going to be there to catch me
But like a spider you've woven a web.
Instead of falling into your arms I fell
Victim,to your lies
I come outside,you stand with your woman hands clutched. Nd lips locked,my jaw dropped nd my heart hard knocked but oh well I'm just the girl next door :) none of that matters.

A pale fragrance lingers as she thinks back to last night.
The sheets of her bed cry and scream for attention.
Her bed yearns for action as it is succumbed to being shoved into the wall countless times.
Night after night..
But on this night she summons up the explicit scenery planted her in sub-concious mind.
The one thing she's been trying to run away from.
So she comes back to reality and realizes that she's hungry,as she sits in the depths of her despair.
She leaves her apartment.
And the only things comforting her are the soles of her feet, becoz...
when she walks the ground speaks.
She leaves her heart in the dump
Because she knows that it isn't worthy enough for the night.
She has long died on the inside
So she swallows her pride
And Gives the last man a joy ride
Not long after she's found next to the dump on the street side.
Atleast she was left next to her heart :)

Is it the falling rain
as it creates a clear sheet,
a cool blanket upon the earth?
Or is it in
the ripples
that form,
and disappear,
along the water’s surface?
Is it the taste
of burnt coal
and ashes
in
your
lungs
as you watch
the past
go up in smoke?
Could it be
along the nighttime streets
as you wander
in search for
where you belong?
Have you found it
under the light
of an
iridescent moon;
in silent reflection
as you reminisce
of Halcyon days?
Is it in
the aftertaste
of their fingers
intertwined
with yours,
or perhaps
in the whispers of
I
Love
You
residing in
the distant past.

A grey time to be alive
Clouds in. A glance within in the air
Birds. Mocking! Mocking birds mocking!!
We always trying to translate our actions in an unparalleled dimension
So are the sillhouettes of the waves of our pain
A deep trance we live in when we make human beings our priority
A. Grey time to be alive!
But I don't wana die.
Charcoal skies,prudent. Ceremonies of an. Explicit remedy
Caught in the disaster of the soul searcher!
I found myself
Lost myself built myself and just went. Astray!
A grey time to be alive!
So much so with the waves of my brains cells and concrete junction of memories I wish I never had
I still wonder and think of those days
A grey time to be alive.
Now see the picture I've painted In ur head and think of this Grey time!
A grey time to be alive.

It was naked but it was true
I call it consensual but you call it food
I'm a writer but none of my honesty soothes
It's like a post basic job I try to keep doing but I think I massively try to hard but all my efforts they are not harsh they only portray good pictures
Basically living without posting is not living at all
I look for peace I try to sleep with peace I replace my TV with peace I dive into thoughts of peace but how ever will I find peace ? I might be looking to hard maybe peace was just knowing you.

Four letters
Fear
Conjures up an emotion
I'm always lying right beside fear
And next to it lies what needs to be conquered
What lies next to it is victory unknown
And things least hoped for
I fear that the number of breaths I take might not make me mount to anything great in life.
I fear that I might become acquainted with me pain!
I fear that my existence will remain unknown!
I fear that I might die a coward!

Fear
One could never think that four letters could consume your sanity,confidence,trust and self belief!
Knees kiss the cement like a bitter rival.
I surrender
And  my sub-conscience echoes in a language unknown!
As fear slowly ***** me me in, into a secluded dinesty of unparalleled promises.
I lie face flat
Thinking that that very same face could face fear!
But that was just a thought
How dillusional I was think I'd conquer fear.

My mind rekindles a fragrance
The fragrance of your flair
The scent of your existence
Like a gentle breeze that kisses my lips
Oh! So heavenly.
I will forever reminisce about the essence you've added to my soul.
A piece of infinity planted in the frame of my heart!
You will always be in my memory
Like the phenomenal person you are.
A diamond!
But I've lost you!
I've lost you to this world!
Such a pity that you could never see yourself through my eyes.
You've always weighed my perception of you with the world's
And I've always been outweighed by the world!
This world you carried on your shoulders!
But where was the world when you hung so hopelessly from that rope?
To see you with a tongue protruding and eyes bulging,ready to jump out of your face!
The very same tongue that made my soul twist!
The very same eyes that lured me into you...
Is now.
No more..
I miss you...