Jawad

Jawad Apr 2017

Earth day? Lame attempt
To thank the thing that
Makes time possible

Because of earth, we can feel time. Yet we say thank you by remembering it once a year...

#npmearthday #haiku

Jawad Apr 2017

A DREAM

Nothing saddens my heart more
Than a dream, where you are not
Doing beautiful things, like
Shine
Smile
Dance
Sing
                                           ...a love song.

Nothing aches my core harder
Than to wake up in the night
And not finding you there to
Kiss
Touch
Smell
Say
                               ...I’m sorry.

Nothing seems more unreal than
Starting my day without you
Being there to talk about
Life
Hope
How
Much
                                            ...I need you.

Having her not in my life seems like a dream, whether I am sleeping, half-awake, or living my day.

In responding to valerie's prompt about dreams.

#npmdream

Jawad Apr 2017

MOVE ON…

You smelled the white flower
You enjoyed her beauty
You took care of her in winter
To watch her bloom in spring

The flower stung you hard
When you tried to pick her
And put her in your little vase
Flowers in vases fade

The flower stopped to bloom
When you tried to move her
To your garden behind the hill
Who told you she can grow there?

If you care about her
Water her, and with love
Admire for a while, but don’t
Linger there forever…
Its time to let go now…

I loved, but I have to move one for her sake…

#love #heartbreak #moveon #respect #boundaries

Jawad Apr 2017

SELF BLAME

Its my fault for wanting to hug clouds
Clouds are there to fly through

Its my fault for wanting to drink rain
Rain is there to wash with

Its my fault for wanting to catch light
Light is there to shine in

Its my fault for wanting to keep leaves
Leaves belong to the winds

Its my fault for wanting to have you
You are there to dream of

The blame when you fall in love with a person you can’t have... and deep inside you know it but you don't want to believe it. But love is beautiful thing. And I had to try. I felt it, and now I have to move on…

#guilty #sadness #crushed #dream #moveone #heartbreak #fault

Jawad Apr 2017

LET ME LOVE YOU

Let me love you
Even if you
Do not intent
To love me back

Albeit the fact
This will not heal
The deepest of
My many scars

I promise thought,
I’ll do my best
Trying to be
Just fine with that
Because it would
Just make me feel
Amazing like
A rising star
That gives its light
Shining so bright,
Receiving nothing
In return

Therefore I ask
You just to try
Receive my kindness
And just smile
Your lonely soul
Deserves kindness
Just like a night
Deserves the stars

But I’m a star
That needs a smile
To shine a light
That travels far
Smile for that star
A tiny smile
Won’t cost you much
Yet so precious

On second thought
I take it back…
Please do not smile..
The other stars
Might think that you
Are smiling ’cause
You like their light…
And blink their eyes
Flirting with you…
I can’t have that…
Cause you are mine

For you should know…
I’m jealous
I might explode
Or might implode
Causing havoc
Like a big bang
Like a black hole
Swallow them all
All other stars
And galaxies
Nothing remains
The end of live..!
Do you want that?
I don’t think so…

Nevertheless…
I just might do…
Destroy them all
Keep only you..
My everything…
My time and space
My one and only
Universe…

Although it seems..
That you prefer
A few dark clouds
A few dim sparks
Over a star
That shines for you
Only for you
Through all the days
And all the nights

I do not mind
I understand
So I’ll go dark
And keep it low
I’ll vanish if
You want me to
Cause I don’t want
To bother you
Never..!

When she doesn’t even want to be friends and receive my kindness after saying no…But I love her too much to bother her with myself and have promised to respect her boundaries.

#heartbreak #sadness #jealousy #boundaries #beauty

Jawad Apr 2017

MAGIC

Magic happens with the word,
Not some stick, pigeon, or rope
Or a lame trick with a card;
Magic happens when her heart
Evaporates, like perfume
When she smells scents of a poem
Dabbed on her neck,
Slow whispers
From the lips of her lover
Her only…

...Prestidigitator

Only poets know what magic is...

#magic #poetry #love #romance #beauty

Jawad Apr 2017

IMAGINATIONS

In my mind,
I am sadly crumbled on the floor
And then you come
Bringing me comfort

In my mind,
I’m deeply lost in a dark wood
Then you appear
Pointing directions

In my mind,
I’m drowning unconsciously in a pond
And then you jump in
Saving my life

In my mind,
Am having bad fevers with dreams
That you are gone
And then you wake me up

In my mind,
I’m writing you difficult poems
But then you smile
And make it easy.

In my mind,
I’m not sure what I exactly should say
And you just nod
Understanding.

In my mind,
My heart is gasping desperately for love
Your deepest sigh...
Full of compassion…

In my mind,
No calmness, comfort, and no thoughts
Only the fact
That I am lost…
...without you.

Wishful thinking and realisations

#dreaming #imaginations #wishful #loss #love #heartbreak