J - Hello Poetry

J Oct 2016

I let it slip
The thing that hurt me most,
And that is you.
Drunk and unashamed
I see to let it out.

I don't think about you most days
But minor days I do
Then for a while,
When I'm in this mood
All I think about is you

#somedays

J Oct 2016

Benchmark

It's ended like I expected
I lost another
But when it happens
My mind goes back to you

I wonder if current me
Would have lost you like before
Or if it was old me that
Might have won this time around

London is too big
With too much choice
Is that why I lose?
Or was old me better than now?

#love #lost #london #benchmark #backtoyou

J Sep 2016

Losing Another One

It's about to happen again
I am about to lose another one
I'm not ready to call it a day yet
But I know it's going to happen

I want to be wrong
But I prefer to feel this way early
Than wait for it to hit me later on
Cause preparation makes it easier?!

Feels like I'm losing another one

#love #dating #losing

J Sep 2016

Relationship

I only knew you for a week or so
But I fell hard and fast
I see you have someone new
I wish I was enough back then
So it could have been me
That you were are with

She got into a relationship according to Facebook

#relationship

J Aug 2016

Anxious

I feel it too often,
I think too much,
Maybe I'm not as nice as I think,
Or maybe I am just too much.

#anxious

J Jul 2016

Why isn't it easier?

Having written down,
All I have ever felt,
Why isn't the pain
Or loneliness any easier

It feels like I am on loop,
But going through it all faster,
Feels like an implosion is pending,
Not sure if I can cope again

#alone #loneliness #coping #easier

J Jul 2016

Disbelief

If I wasn't brave tonight,
I wouldn't have been where I was tonight.

But then weeks ago, I wouldn't have met you,
I wouldn't have held your hand.

But I wouldn't have felt my heart beat faster,
When I saw you with another guy tonight

#brave #heartbeat #tonight #disbelief