It is most beautiful but tragic to actually love  someone, and know that it is possible to loose them.

Come close but not to close
Confuse me with your words but make your intentions crystal clear
That you WANT me
But you don't REALLY want me

I will forever wish for a off and on button on emotions.

The only HATE I've ever felt

Was the reflective madness

I received from the ones I dumb foundedly

Loved with every piece of me |

Love is suppose to be breathtakingly amazing
The reason for life
Not the reason for death
as I let my feelings take control of my mind
The darkness swallows me whole
But im not scared
because you are the darkness
My light in the dark
While im counting the stars
Your the moon watching over me
My protector

Theres a BIG difference between being alive, and being dead inside.

What is it with relationships and attraction?
Why do some of us expect someone else to complete us? Why are females most likely the ones who get there feelings hurt more then males?

***?
Whats up with that? Why is there such complication to it? Why does cockiness even exist? Why can't we all just be friendly sweet human beings who are kind to one another?

Why is the world so cruel?

Why is money the root to all evil?

Why?

I've never Been this angry
And so closed off from the world
And ive never been so terrified of what could come next

I saw you again today
And god what a relief that was
Because I really thought I'd never see your face again.

I'm in love with the air in the morning
And the chilly winds at night
I love the honesty that escapes from you when you've had way to much alcohol
My heart flutters at the sweet couples who express there love publicly
Smoothies taste especially good in the summertime
I'm in love with weird things and strangers and the idea of you

It was that kind of breakup
That left you both emotional and emotionless
All while wondering was it all worth it?

I loved you, you saved me
but with you I always felt the need to look over my shoulder

I loved him more
Because with him, I felt safe enough to fall asleep in his arms
I felt no need to look over my shoulder.

Is swallowing me again
No one understands
And I wanna go away


Far far away
Alone and content
Warm and Lonely with only myself to comfort

I wanna go away
Away from the madness and gossip
Away from ugly judgmentals who torment my emotions

I wanna go away
And sometimes I wish I didn't need people because on my own id be gone
And alone In A Dark Whole.

Before the world ends
And where all devided between
Good & evil
I want to know that i lived a great life on earth
And that i've made all my wildest dreams
Come true~

The moon glowed in the direction of the path in the woods
I should have walked that way

But instead i followed you.

I want to need you
And I want to love you
But I also want you to feel the same.

I would love to explore the world

But only if im hand in hand

With someone i love

& that would mean this was all worth it.

And today was really ...
          
              really bad..

Why are you making me feel so ashamed
For falling so deeply in love?

Is it because you know that it is a momentary thing?
That it will be over in a blink of an eye? Because if that's your reason then I'm scared too..
I know loving every single little thing about a person is a dangerous thing.

These days my life is like a pool of bad vibes and negativity

Is it when your innocence has fled that you are no longer as pure as you use to be? Are you not as poetic as you use to be?

Are you even the same person?

This  isnt mathematics
im not trying to test you
Forget who wronged you before you, I swear to you I won't ever hurt you
I know your heart hurts and mines does too
But please open it back up and let me love you

I thought horror
movies were scary
But then I thought of
Loosing You.

I don't know...How do you stop the bad memories from flashing through your head?
It's like a nightmare that repeats when I'm awake and asleep

A never ending reminder that My past mistakes are permanently stamped into my insane brain
Laughing at my miserable state.

They told me to fall in love with life, nature, the sun and the moon. I didn't listen, I went with my instincts.

I fell in love with you
instead of the sun and moon and I regret nothing.

My Depression is beginning  to feel like a stickyness on my fingers that I can't quit wash off

There is no greater love
Then a love that was meant to be.

They say live life for the fun
I say live life for the Love

Maybe in this life
We are separate, worlds apart
But I know deep in the depths of my dark dreary heart that in a past life, your were mine and I was yours.

It's Terribly depressing liking someone who has no Such thing as the same feelings as you.

Somedays I'm perfectly fine
I can smile for a full 24 hours without letting the thought of you ruin me

But somedays....
I breakdown and scream to the deepest darkest part of the universe asking the world why can't I have you?

Who cares if your life is terrible
Or if it's the greatest
Where all gonna die anyway so do what you want.

I'm so use to this depression
That I don't mind that it leaves, then finds it's way back to me
I almost welcome it
It's all I know.

I loved you to much
And you didn't love me enough

I feel as though I'm waisting away
Like I'm just a color on a paper slowly fading

I feel as if I may be stuck between reality, and the images I create in my head.

Our days are numbered
The clock is ticking, we are not getting any younger
I'm younger then I'll ever be but I'm still hidden behind closed doors while the adventures outside those doors wait for me,
How about you break down those doors,
Give me to the light above and allow me to explore the sky like a shooting star

My Ears burst awake soothed by the thunderous Melodies Of the storm outside my window
The lightening crackling and lighting up my dark bedroom
My hand crawls across the bed reaching for you
Wanting you
Yearning you
But I remember that your gone
My body is not use to you being away
Its to imune to the way you take care of it
My lips are slowly going back to its color
At least ever since you've been done with them
My heart is no longer red and pumping
In fact im conviced its left my body
Along with my mind and my soul
And you
Your all Gone

End
  But feelings continue.

Please do not take any more moments for granted
                           Time is our enemy
                   who is rushing to the finish line
                              Kiss your crush
Hop on that roller coaster ride and scream your love to the world, smile when times are bad, things could be even worse, do something productive everyday and end it with a simple thanks to the skies for blessing you with another day, be greatful and watch your life drastically change for the better.

I feel as though I changed
And this new life is amazing
But if I'm loosing myself in this change
I'd rather have my old life back
As well as myself

I watch you while you watch me watch you
Funny thing is
we are both blind
In both eyes

If he doesn't look at you like your the most precious thing in the world or doesn't treat you like your worth a billion bucks then darling he's not the one

Make sure he's proud to show you off to the world and loves to tell everyone how much he loves you, make sure he knows how to be a gentlemen and holds the door for you and makes sure you get home okay

If he doesn't look you in your eyes from time to time to tell you how much he loves you or makes no effort to express that love then honey walk away from that man

Know your worth and even add some change to it. Your amazing, make sure the guy you give your heart to knows that.

" Forever "

Is just another ordinary word that's used to put a temporary smile on our faces.

It's really sad isn't it?
I'm tired of complaining I want things to change right now, you don't want me I get it I promise I'm trying to except that,
I wanna cry now and get it over with but I know that tears only come to my eyes when I'm overwhelmed with millions of others things and I crash with all of my emotions at once,

Oh wait *


My eyes are tearing up right now because I'm thinking of the girl that you've chosen over me,
She must be prettier, I get it, trust me i do
But it's just tragic you know?
I never get exactly what I want
Something always goes wrong I always find myself back in this black whole, this blank space, this emptiness and fulfilling darkness.


No no I'm not jealous
She's really lucky though, she gets to see that smile of yours everyday and watch you dribble a basketball through your legs and show off knowing your watching him, he loves it, he loves showing off for the girls,
I just don't get it though, what is wrong with Me? People please stop it when you say looks don't really matter, Looks are what catches others attention,
"Looks" are part of the reason you chose her over me, well that and the fact that your stupid friends hate me.

I'm angry darling,
I'm angry that I'm never good enough, not for you or for anyone
I've never really done anything wrong to anyone
I'm not 100% innocent but I'm not like any other teenager
I've been through hell and I'm still finding my way back to the closest place to heaven.



I'm sorry...I'm ranting now But I need express this heartbreak, this depression, this blank space, and these cigarettes and straight ***** aren't helping.

You want love but you cannot give love.

I wish to be the reason you are terrified of death.