Guess I need to cry more

Because it didn't go out yet

My Depression is beginning  to feel like a stickyness on my fingers that I can't quit wash off

I've never Been this angry
And so closed off from the world
And ive never been so terrified of what could come next

What is it with relationships and attraction?
Why do some of us expect someone else to complete us? Why are females most likely the ones who get there feelings hurt more then males?

***?
Whats up with that? Why is there such complication to it? Why does cockiness even exist? Why can't we all just be friendly sweet human beings who are kind to one another?

Why is the world so cruel?

Why is money the root to all evil?

Why?

It is most beautiful but tragic to actually love  someone, and know that it is possible to loose them.

No matter your situation or circumstance you cannot stop living.
You've only got one life,
One shot to make yourself happy.
Why not do it?

I saw you again today
And god what a relief that was
Because I really thought I'd never see your face again.

Is it when your innocence has fled that you are no longer as pure as you use to be? Are you not as poetic as you use to be?

Are you even the same person?

It was that kind of breakup
That left you both emotional and emotionless
All while wondering was it all worth it?

They say live life for the fun
I say live life for the Love

Why are you making me feel so ashamed
For falling so deeply in love?

Is it because you know that it is a momentary thing?
That it will be over in a blink of an eye? Because if that's your reason then I'm scared too..
I know loving every single little thing about a person is a dangerous thing.

Getting your heart broken is terrible
But don't let it ruin you
Cry about it for a week
Then get on with your life.

I would love to explore the world

But only if im hand in hand

With someone i love

& that would mean this was all worth it.

Love is suppose to be breathtakingly amazing
The reason for life
Not the reason for death
as I let my feelings take control of my mind
The darkness swallows me whole
But im not scared
because you are the darkness
My light in the dark
While im counting the stars
Your the moon watching over me
My protector

These days my life is like a pool of bad vibes and negativity

I will forever wish for a off and on button on emotions.

Theres a BIG difference between being alive, and being dead inside.

The only HATE I've ever felt

Was the reflective madness

I received from the ones I dumb foundedly

Loved with every piece of me |

I thought horror
movies were scary
But then I thought of
Loosing You.

Who cares if your life is terrible
Or if it's the greatest
Where all gonna die anyway so do what you want.

I want to need you
And I want to love you
But I also want you to feel the same.

I loved you to much
And you didn't love me enough

My Ears burst awake soothed by the thunderous Melodies Of the storm outside my window
The lightening crackling and lighting up my dark bedroom
My hand crawls across the bed reaching for you
Wanting you
Yearning you
But I remember that your gone
My body is not use to you being away
Its to imune to the way you take care of it
My lips are slowly going back to its color
At least ever since you've been done with them
My heart is no longer red and pumping
In fact im conviced its left my body
Along with my mind and my soul
And you
Your all Gone

It's Terribly depressing liking someone who has no Such thing as the same feelings as you.

I'm so use to this depression
That I don't mind that it leaves, then finds it's way back to me
I almost welcome it
It's all I know.

Is swallowing me again
No one understands
And I wanna go away


Far far away
Alone and content
Warm and Lonely with only myself to comfort

I wanna go away
Away from the madness and gossip
Away from ugly judgmentals who torment my emotions

I wanna go away
And sometimes I wish I didn't need people because on my own id be gone
And alone In A Dark Whole.

And today was really ...
          
              really bad..

I'm in love with the air in the morning
And the chilly winds at night
I love the honesty that escapes from you when you've had way to much alcohol
My heart flutters at the sweet couples who express there love publicly
Smoothies taste especially good in the summertime
I'm in love with weird things and strangers and the idea of you

I don't know...How do you stop the bad memories from flashing through your head?
It's like a nightmare that repeats when I'm awake and asleep

A never ending reminder that My past mistakes are permanently stamped into my insane brain
Laughing at my miserable state.

The moon glowed in the direction of the path in the woods
I should have walked that way

But instead i followed you.

There is no greater love
Then a love that was meant to be.

Maybe in this life
We are separate, worlds apart
But I know deep in the depths of my dark dreary heart that in a past life, your were mine and I was yours.

I feel as though I'm waisting away
Like I'm just a color on a paper slowly fading

This  isnt mathematics
im not trying to test you
Forget who wronged you before you, I swear to you I won't ever hurt you
I know your heart hurts and mines does too
But please open it back up and let me love you

I wish to be the reason you are terrified of death.

Somedays I'm perfectly fine
I can smile for a full 24 hours without letting the thought of you ruin me

But somedays....
I breakdown and scream to the deepest darkest part of the universe asking the world why can't I have you?

They told me to fall in love with life, nature, the sun and the moon. I didn't listen, I went with my instincts.

I fell in love with you
instead of the sun and moon and I regret nothing.

I feel as if I may be stuck between reality, and the images I create in my head.

Sorry for those nights when your eyes cried and you couldn't think of one reason to smile
You didn't deserve to be left alone with your thoughts which were attacking your conscious and making your insides bleed  
The feeling of fire burning in your veins is from that last conversation you had with the love of your life
And I'm sorry that you can't forget any of the details of what you've been through but your life is not over, you can not give up.

People have made me so uncomfortable in society. They say be yourself but if they don't like it they'll say "Not Like That."

Kills you mentally
Your no longer the person you use to be
It's like someone new has a residence inside of you,
Yeah your stronger, but that new strength is what's blocking you away from the world


What Doesnt **** You ,
Scars you for life
The vicious memories are bunches of blocks in your head,
visions that you will not release,
Pain that you will forever indure


What Doesn't  **** You
Should have killed you,
Because now you cheated death, and now death is what you've become.

Our days are numbered
The clock is ticking, we are not getting any younger
I'm younger then I'll ever be but I'm still hidden behind closed doors while the adventures outside those doors wait for me,
How about you break down those doors,
Give me to the light above and allow me to explore the sky like a shooting star

Why is it that when you finally get what you want
You suddenly don't want it anymore?

He didn't understand why I liked storms
But what he never realized is that
Everytime he left me
I felt like one

I watch you while you watch me watch you
Funny thing is
we are both blind
In both eyes

" Forever "

Is just another ordinary word that's used to put a temporary smile on our faces.